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🔪🩸 Deserved...? [Illumina self harm] 🩸☠

[TW: SELF HARM IN THIS CHAPTER!! REQUSTED BY iloveangstangstangst]

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Illumina gasped. He had made a huge mistake, the biggest mistake he had ever made, in fact. He looked at the red liquid on the floor, then looked at the knife beside him. He sobbed, no wonder nobody likes him. 

He sniffled, then grabbed the knife beside him. This...this would help...

right?

He dug the blade inside his skin. It hurt, perhaps he should stop.  As he saw the blood drip off, he smiled. That's what he wanted to see from himself. His need for blood grew even more, as he did even more cuts on his wrist. "Hah..." he whispered, cutting himself faster. Stronger. And better.

There were a lot of cuts. He felt his eyelids get heavy, as he laid his head against the wall. He closed his eyes, hoping that this would end up being his graveyard. 

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Illumina woke up, his eyes getting used to the bright light. He groaned and moved his arm up towards his head, only to be met with a pain in his wrist. He looked at it, seeing cuts everywhere. His brain soon then recalled memories, as he regretted what he did. 

The pain wouldn't leave him, it kept burning. 

And the pain in his chest wouldn't leave. 

He looked at the window, then looked at the view below. He positioned himself on the sill of the window. It wasn't a long way down, it was only a few feet...okay, it was a long way down, so what? Illumina just wanted to do it, and he just had to do it. 

He jumped off.

He braced himself for the end, but...he landed slowly. He looked at his arms, seeing a purple aura around him. It landed him on the ground, then disappeared. There was nothing to do to kill himself, he couldn't do it. 

He wanted to, fuck his power. 

He heard a voice inside his head. "Escaping from your purpose is impossible..." 

The words just keep repeating inside his head, as he soon broke down sobbing. The tears came nonstop, there was nobody to comfort him. All he needed was a hug, a hug would help him. Even one small little one. 

But nobody was there to give him a hug, even his siblings. 

Nobody liked him, he had to accept the truth. Nobody cared about him, he accepted the truth again. He grabbed the knife and pointed it to his chest. If jumping off the window didn't work, how about stabbing himself in the heart?

He pushed it with lots of force, as the knife stopped immediately. He looked at the purple aura around the knife, as it then shattered into pieces. Illumina sobbed more, how could he die? What does he have to do to die??

"Escaping from your purpose is impossible." the voice echoed through his head again, causing him to cry even more. Everything hurt right now, he felt that this was going to be permanent.. 

"Your problem may seem like it's permanent, but it's only temporary..."  he remembered Firebrand say that, then looked beside him. Firebrand would comfort him right now...

if only he wasn't dead. Firebrand wouldn't forgive Illumina, it was all over. 

"Please..." Illumina choked through tears. 

"I-I'm sorry..."

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[Yes, I know this was short, but I spent like, a week on this. Sorry for the slow updates, I've been very busy with school. With all the big tests coming up, all the homework, grades, missing assignments, I've been very busy. My grades have been dropping by working on this chapter, I haven't done a lot of work. I'm working on them currently, I've raised my grade back to an A before I published this!! Well, just expect requests to come about in a week. Love y'all!! <3]