YOU ARE MINE AND ONLY MINE - KimMacau

Chapter 6

Macau

At dawn

I slowly open my eyes, and notice that I'm already in my room. My head feels hurt and a little dizzy due  to the last night crying. Then I get off from bed and take a piece of paper & pen, then i start to write something on it. While writing on the paper i speak in my heart ' P'Kim, If I disappear from your life makes you happy, I will fulfill it for you P'Kim and i hope you will be happy after this ' after writing something on the paper, i fold the paper and put into the envelope and seal it. Then i went to sleep again, i hope all the pain and problems end tomorrow.

Next morning

I came out of my room then I walked slowly from the stairs and I saw Porchay who was getting ready for college. Chay sees me coming and he runs towards me and asks " Macau, how are you feeling? Are you okay ? Does your head still hurt ?" He asked so many questions and I could see the worries in his eyes, then I replied to him " Don't worry Chay, I'm fine just a little dizzy but I'll be fine once i eat the medicine"

Then P'Vegas also joined  the conversation and patted my hair slowly and said "if you don't want to go to college today it's okay no problem, just rest in your room and i will ask the maid to bring breakfast to your room" i feel a little calm & peace when my brother pat my hair . " I need time for myself phi, if i go to college, i will definitely see P'Kim and it'll hurt me even more.... I don't want to hear other hurtful words from him" i replied and my brother didn't say anything, i can see the anger in his eyes.... My brother seems to understand me and he just nods. Then I looked at Porchay and realized that he was looking at my hand where I was holding a white envelope and he asked me " What is that Cau ? " He pointed his fingers towards the envelope and my brother also looked in the direction where I was holding the envelope. " Ermm.... Chay... Can you please give this letter to P'Kim on my behalf.... Please " i asked him

Porchay hesitated at first but then he sighed heavily and said " Alright, i will give this letter to that bastard. Anyway, i need to go now.... it's getting late already "  then my brother says that he will drop Chay at college and before they go my brother kisses my forehead and says " Don't think too much baby and don't worry about anything, everything will be fine...please rest and eat your breakfast, okay. "  I smiled at my brother and nod, then I hugged my brother and i tried my best to hold my tears from coming out. I asked them to be careful while driving and waved my hand to them.

After they're gone, i close the door and then i slowly sit on the floor and lean my head towards the door behind me. Then i burst into tears and yelled " Why ?? Why P'Kim why ?? Why you never give me a chance and why you have to look down on me ?? Do i really not deserve to be loved like you say? Why P'Kim...why...just why ??" Then i cry even harder, i hug my both knees and hide my face.

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At College

Porchay got out of the car and said " be careful P'Vegas, i will see you later and please make sure Macau eats " Vegas nods and drives away his car from the college. Porchay was walking at the parking lot and saw Kim who is now getting out of his car after parking it. Porchay called Kim and Kim turned around to see who was calling his name then found out it was Porchay, he didn't say anything...he just stood there like a statue until Porchay walked towards him and gave him the letter. Kim was confused and asked Porchay " What is this Chay ?" Porchay then replied " I told you not to say my name with your disgusting mouth and this is from Macau, he asked me to give it to you " after giving the letter Porchay walked away without waiting for Kim to respond.

After Porchay vanished from his sight he looked at the letter that he was holding in his hand. He feels curious about the letter then he opens the envelope... He takes out a letter from the envelope and starts to read the letter silently.

" To my love P'Kim the one that i love unconditionally, by the time you read this letter... I might disappear from you not only you but disappear from this world. I know I don't deserve you, you also said that I don't deserve to be loved but you're wronged... I deserve to be loved maybe not by you or everyone but at least i deserve to be loved by my brother. That love also i won't be getting anymore because I'm going to disappear from everyone's life. Before i disappear, i want you to know that my love for you was never a lie or game not even a bit. My love for you was true, I don't know if you still remember it or not but i still remember the moment we were happy kids and always played together. Every time I cry, you will always comfort me and stay with me until I stop crying. You even made a flower crown for me and promised me that you will always protect me from the bad guys and will take care of me. But i never imagined that the one who promised me that he will protect me from getting hurt is going to be the one who actually hurt me and broke me. Where are the promised you made ?? Where did those promises gone ?? What have i done to you to deserve this hate from you ?? Why do you have to hate me so much and why does it have to be you that hates me ????" I know i couldn't be like Porchay and i never will but believe me P'Kim, i really love you from the bottom of my heart and I'm really sorry if my love for you was that annoying or disgusting, please forgive me for loving you and i also i also need to ask an apology to myself for believe all your promises and for loving you. This is my punishment for loving you all these years and never realized that all your promises were a lie. This is the last time you will see me or hear my name. Farewell P'Kim - MACAU"

The moment he finished reading the letter, tears were pouring from his eyes and that's the moment he realized how cruel he was towards that innocent boy and the damage he caused for that boy. All the memories of their childhood suddenly flash in front of him and how happy they were when they were together. "I'm sorry Cau, I'm really sorry for forgetting the promise that i made for you. Please don't do anything stupid, I won't let anything happen to you. I'm coming for you Cau"

15 Minutes Later

Kim arrived at the Minor Family house, he came out from his car and went straight to the house. He knocked on the doors so many times but no one was opening the door, then he had no choice but to break the doors. While he's breaking the door few bodyguards rush in and they are shocked to see the youngest son of the Main family is breaking the door. They try to stop him but his one murderous glare is enough for them to step back, they know both families are united and Main family sons also their boss.

After breaking the door, Kim went straight to the Macau room and knocked on the door but there was no response from the inside. He kept knocking then the door suddenly opened by itself. He rushed inside and kept calling Macau's name but no response. He felt panic and scared when he didn't hear any response or sounds, then saw the bathroom door is slightly open and he rushed towards the door and opened it. The moment he opens the door, Kim feels like the world turns dark when he sees there's a lot of blood in the bathtub.

Kim then yells " No! Macau !! " He then quickly pulled Macau out from the bathtub and saw there was a lot of blood coming out from Macau's wrist. Kim then pulled Macau close towards him and said "Hey Macau, open your eyes it's me your P'Kim...open your eyes please.... don't leave me please open....y-your eyes...you can't leave me like this...what about your brother....he won't live in this world if you gone...please open your eyes. I won't allow anything to happen for you, please open your eyes" Kim shakes Macau's body, then Macau slowly opens his eyes and looks at the person that hugs him. "p-pkim" he said in a weak voice. Kim then touches their foreheads and says " Macau, please hold on for me...i will save you, you can't leave me." Macau tries to say something but Kim cuts  " Don't talk Macau, i will take you to the hospital " .

Kim carried Macau in his arms and ran towards the front door of the house and heard a loud shout from the outside " WHAT'S THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE " the person who is shouting is none other than Vegas. The moment he stepped out of the house, he saw Vegas who was about to yell at him but before he yelled Kim said " We need to go to the hospital, Macau cut his wrist "

Vegas was shocked when he looked at Macau and the blood. He feels like his whole world is turned upside down and he can hear the breaking sounds of his own heart. He didn't say anything, he rushed to his car and started the engine. Kim climbed into the car back seat and still carried Macau in his arms then put Macau on his lap and hugged him. Vegas is crying in silence, his blood is boiling like a lava because he already knows the reason why Macau is in this condition but now he needs to save Macau first. Vegas arrived at the hospital after a few minutes, Vegas getting out of his and Kim also getting out of the car while carrying Macau in his arms. Then the doctors and nurses come and Kim puts Macau on the stretcher... The doctor immediately takes Macau to the emergency room.