MY CRUSH ❤️

Who does he like?

So watermelon is sadly still dating "Avery" (we are gonna call her that bc that's what lavenderash276 calls her lol)

But I think my friend (who is dating someone rn) is the person that my crush likes.

My friend's boyfriend also thinks that bc Watermelon and my friend talk to each other, and it looks/sounds like they are flirting.

I know that my friend isn't trying to flirt with him bc she seemed genuinely confused about it. The way she talks sounds like she is flirting, even when she talks to her twin sister or girls (she isn't lesbian so it makes sense that she talks the same way to everyone).

Anyway, her bf is jealous bc she talks to Watermelon so much, and honestly, I am jealous too.

I just wish that he would like me!!!

I get why he doesn't like me (bc who would anyway), but it still hurts, u know?

He did talk to me today and started calling me short like he always does. It's worse now bc he got shoes that give him like 2-3 taller than he normally is (he isn't that tall, but still)

He also asked if I was going to CSM (at our church for kids to hang out) and when I said yes, he smiled and said "Ok, I get to make fun and judge you more."

I just rolled my eyes and pretended to act annoyed. (Trust me, I'm a master at this by now)

But yeah, that's one of the updates on my crush!

Another thing that happened today was that I started crying in gym (watermelon is in my class)

So I hate arguments, being mean, and making people feel sad. Whenever I feel like I am being mean, or that I accidentally said/did something bad that day, I often cry about it.

I'm really bad at pickleball, and that's unfortunately what we are doing in gym rn.

I always joke whenever I miss a hit or sm bc otherwise I feel really bad for making my team lose the point.

The person who was on my team kept giving me this look whenever I messed up.

When she messed up but almost made it, I gave her the look jokingly. But then after I said to her, "That was so close!!! Way better than I could have done! Good job!"

She understood it was a joke, and she laughed, but this other girl, who was on the opposite team, didn't.

She didn't hear what I said, so she assumed that I was making fun of her and being mean (I swear I would never do that).

She started sort of yelling? Not yelling, but very close to it.

She says to me, "Why did you say that (my name)!?!? That was so mean!!! She did a good job!!!"

I felt so bad, and I hate getting yelled at, so I started crying.

I kept saying, "I'm so sorry!!! I didn't mean to!!! It was a joke!!!" But I was crying, so it sounded weird.

The girl on my team goes, "Yeah, it was a joke. She wasn't being mean to me, so don't yell at her."

I was just so upset, so I asked my teacher  if I could go and change in the locker room early.

I was able to go to the locker room, and after I changed and got out, watermelon was there.

He asked me if I was ok, and I said, "Yeah," but I wasn't sure at that point.

Sooooo that's what happened today :)

Ilysmmmmmmmm ❤️