A Silent Surrender

WHISPERS OF INFIDELITY

When Eva handed me the phone, I noticed Carmen had called and sent a text. She'd also sent a photo of herself, dressed in nothing but lingerie. This woman just wouldn't give up. I had a meeting early that morning with my father and the rest of our mafia clan. Afterward, I spent the day with my cousin August at the casino, managing the gambling business and overseeing a high-volume drug deal. The place was packed with prostitutes and strippers. When we were done, August dragged me into one of the private rooms filled with sex toys and strippers, men and women, all ready to entertain.

August knew me well, my likes, my limits. He was the life of the party, always mixing business with pleasure. He even had a penthouse reserved for his wildest escapades. He'd slept with men and women alike, throwing orgies like they were regular dinner parties. I wasn't shocked anymore; I'd seen it all with him. Hell, even I had been with men before, though not in an orgy.

That day, I wasn't in the mood. Even when the strippers kissed and touched me, I shoved them away, leaving the room in frustration. After a few drinks at the bar, August insisted we go to one of his notorious house parties. Despite my resistance, he dragged me along. The party was a blur, cigars, wine, weed, business deals, and Carmen. She appeared in the sexiest dress imaginable, and as drunk as I was, I couldn't resist her when she pulled me aside. I ended up at her place. Things escalated quickly; she undressed me, sucked my dick, and rode me hard. But even then, my mind felt foggy, like I didn't truly want it.

I woke up at 4:00 a.m. with her naked body draped over mine. I needed to leave, but she pulled me back, begging me to stay. She was relentless. She touched me, sucked me again, and I let it happen, feeling nothing but guilt as she rode me until I came. I dressed quickly and got out of there, my head spinning.

Back home, I tried to get myself together. I popped some painkillers, took a shower, and headed to the study. By 6:30, Eva stormed in, furious. "Where the fuck were you all day and night?" she demanded. I looked up at her, my head pounding. "I was working," I replied, trying to brush her off. She wasn't having it.

"So you work with prostitutes now?" she spat, glaring at me. "Yes, you know that's part of the job," I teased, trying to deflect, but she stormed out, slamming the door behind her. I followed her to her room, but she had locked the door. I banged on it until the knob broke. When I found her in the bathroom, she was standing under the shower, tears streaming down her face. The sight of her wrecked me.

I stepped into the shower, clothes and all, but she screamed at me not to touch her. I stepped back, soaked and frustrated. The guilt gnawed at me all day, and I couldn't shake the image of her broken expression. Later, I saw her at dinner with Nanny Rose, but she looked... dimmed, like the light inside her had flickered out.

I sent Rose away and as Eva tried to go along with her . I grabbed her, pulling her onto my lap despite her attempts to escape. "What the fuck is wrong with you? Why are you so pissed about me sleeping outside the house ? You know what goes on in the Mafia .I can't always be here , with you all day ," I said, trying to keep my voice steady. She didn't reply, just sat there in silence. I wiped the tears from her face, trying to kiss her, but she turned away, her spiteful gaze cutting deep.

After what felt like an eternity, she finally snapped. "You're locking me in this hell while you're out fucking that woman I saw you with ,What do you call her , Carm? I'm not enough for you, and she seems to have everything you want,  right? If you can sleep around, so can I. I don't want to study while locked up in here . I want to go to school , study with people my age and I can probably fuck around like you are doing . I find it unfair that you get to have all the fun while I ........" Her words hit like a slap, but I held her tighter.

"You can't be out there, Eva. It's dangerous," I managed to say.

"That's bullshit. You're just selfish... and a whore." She knew. She knew about Carmen.

The argument was going nowhere, so I let her go, but as I tried to leave, she blocked the doorway. "Are you going back to her?" she asked, voice trembling with anger.

I lost control. I lifted her onto the dining table, knocking plates to the floor. I ripped her clothes off and kissed her, devouring her. She moaned, her body betraying her rage. I kissed her from her lips to her thighs, and when I finally tasted her, she was dripping wet. I licked her until her body convulsed, her moans louder than ever.

" Do you want me to stop ?"I asked . But when she didn't answer my question, I left her breathless on the table, her legs shaking and heart beating loud . 

I walked outside the house in deep thought .I wanted to let her go to that school she was so obsessed with . Studying medicine normally takes a lot of time .At least six years . If she got pregnant and had a child or two, it would take her longer . How would I completely keep her safe for all that time .If I let her go , would she find love and cheat on me ? Not like I was a saint but I  didn't want to even think about it . Surely I'd have to kill them both . I would have to make a decision soon. 

In the meantime , I had to deal with a more important matter .I couldn't be with Eva, not until I dealt with Carmen. So, I called Carmen to meet me, determined to end things once and for all.