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Jordan Miller
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"You've been in bed all day J. You gotta get up" Key said walking into his room
We were back from Detroit and I decided to stay a couple days with him before going back home to Houston, mostly because I wasn't ready to be alone again.
We've only been talking for two months and I feel like I'm already attached to him which had me scared.
The reason why I'm so iffy with trusting men is because everytime I did they always proved me why I shouldn't have trust them in the first place.
Men only wanted me for sex or because of my looks.
Some claimed I was too boring so they cheated on me.
So now I would just talk to them from time to time and when I felt like it was getting too serious I'll cut them off or ghost them, but Key was different.
He's so sweet, he's patient, respectful, genuine. He was just amazing in general.
He doesn't push me into doing anything sexual and he doesn't rush anything we have going on.
But for some reason I was still scared.
He sat next to me and removed the covers from my face.
"Come on, I know your hungry" he said using his thumb to rub my cheek
It finally hit me that my mom was no longer alive.
I thought I was okay because I've been doing good since I've gotten the news but once I had the time to actually sit down and think everything hit hard. Then I finally noticed I was only okay because I was constantly on the go.
Luckily Key was there to comfort me but I haven't been the same since.
I've been in bed since we've got back.
The only time I'll get up is to take a shower and to use the bathroom.
Key would try to get me to go with him somewhere with him or even go out on a walk but I just didn't feel like it.
I didn't feel like doing much of anything lately.
"I'm not hungry"
He sighed "I know you grieving baby girl, but this ain't healthy. Come on let's go grab some food."
