Jalosi, Jalosi (MikhAiah)

Sa 'Akin' Ang Tingin

AILA'S POV

It's been a week since the homecoming party that triggered me to get an episode.

After that, just like the old times. I isolated myself at home. The girls never failed to check on me. They'll text me na nag iwan sila ng food and cheer me up.

Pero hindi nila ako kkatukin sa room. They already know that hindi ko din naman sila lalabasin.

It's not that I don't appreciate them coming over but I just can't interact in times like this. At naiintindihan nila yon.

I already gained back some of my energy so I decided to go out. I wanna go painting today so ppunta nalang ako sa cafe.

I arrived here mga 8pm. Dumiretso lang ako sa counter for my order. At nagpareserve na din ako ng seat sa gallery.

"Ma'am, hatid nalang po namin order niyo sa gallery. Thank you po."

nginitian ko nalang si ate girl at pumunta na ko sa gallery para magsimulang mag paint.

walang tao dito ngayon. buti nalang din kasi hindi ako macconscious na parang may nakatingin sakin. ang soothing din ng playlist dito. marrelax ka talaga habang nagppaint.

"order niyo po ma'am" saka napatingin ako sa isinerve na tray. wait.

"Miss, I didn't order for flow---..." napahinto ako ng ibalin ko ang tingin sa nagserve sakin kasi nga wala naman akong order na flowersss.

"ahmm. a peace offering?..." ano na namang ginagawa ng babaeng to dito?

"thanks. but I'll appreciate it more if you're gonna leave me alone in peace." I don't have enough energy to argue with this girl.

"sorry, for what happened last time. ahm. don't worry I won't bother you naman. Just maybe,.. let me sit with you?"

she's now giving me puppy eyes trying convince me.

I just answered her with a deep sigh. not a sign of defeat but I just can't talk much. So I go back with my painting and take the first sip of my coffee.

I didn't bother to look at her but I can still see her in my peripheral view that she's also trying to paint.

I can feel her staring and glancing at me from time to time. She's really trying to keep her promise not to bother me.

Pero parang pakiramdam ko ay hindi naman talaga ako bothered sakanya. I feel like I didn't just gave her a chance.

Our first encounter was so dramatic because of me. I admit. Hello, kahit na sabihin kong ayokong pinapamukha sakin na mali ako it was because I already know it myself and it's just hard for me to acknowledged it. but I'm working on it.

and now it feels more awkward not arguing with each other.

but I surprisingly feel at ease right now around her kahit tahimik lang kami.

then I couldn't help myself and turned to her and caught her staring at me.

"You know it's rude to stare, right?" I uttered calmly wouldn't want to let her know that I'm already cozy.

"I-I just find you so attractive." she stutters as she blinks her eyes multiple times trying to regain herself.

"And regret not kissing you in our first encounter" she added now in a confident and honest tone.

I was taken aback sa sinabi niya. I didn't expect for her to bring it up because I thought wala lang siyang idea noon on what I'm trying to do. But still I messed up with her because I'm pissed.