Trustfall || Sanders Sides Equestrian AU

Surprise! Author's note :)

How does one start an author's note like this.

Hi. It's still Luna, somehow. It's nearly 2am and I've found myself logging on here and falling down a rabbit hole.

Life-wise, I'll keep it brief - this has been the absolute worst year of my life. I wish I could get into it in detail but for multiple personal reasons, I've decided it would be nothing but unproductive. In short, this past year has been one giant tragedy.

I've had pretty much no choice but to enlist now after a mere few months at the riding facility I had moved to, so you can imagine I haven't really had a place to breathe, haha.

Trustfall was never something I thought I would get back to, at least not during this past hell of a year. It frustrated me that I left it off two mere chapters away from the end, especially considering all the exciting things I had planned for the sequel, but I genuinely could not do it. There's been too much responsibility and too much grief on my shoulders this past year and I genuinely forgot the story existed until earlier tonight, when I sat on my bed enjoying this rare time spent at home.

I decided to log on and read through. I found myself laughing and tearing up at your comments. Maybe this year would have been easier if I had the time to keep writing and posting for you, because I'd forgotten how much of a sense of comfort it always provided me.

Even if there are only a handful of readers here still - it gutted me to realise how I'd left it off and how no one truly got any closure with the story.

"Luna, are you nuts enough to try to juggle finishing this story while serving in the army?"

Eh. Watch me.

No but seriously. I may only get a couple rare days at home at a time, but when I'm here, I truly want to try to at least write the last two chapters of the book. We can talk about the sequel I have outlined some other time, haha. Maybe I'll write a chapter every couple of months when I'm not in combat. Maybe I'll wait until my release in a couple of years and write the sequel then. Maybe I won't even write these last two chapters until my release, who knows. Why is my life like this. Holy shit. I'm genuinely laughing out loud at how ridiculous this sounds.

This whole page sounds so bitter and sad but I promise, I genuinely feel warm inside writing this, having just read through your comments - both the ones left years ago before I left, and the more recent ones I never got to see. So thank you. Truly. Every one of you who took these minutes off your day to write these kind comments, I appreciate you more than words could express.

Like I said. This year has been the worst. But in previous years writing this book was once one of the best parts of my life, so I'm hoping it can bring me some comfort - and bring you guys some closure on the story, if anyone's still reading!

Now is this a promise? No. I'm still figuring out how to do this. This is less of a "more chapters coming soon!" and more of a "I'm somehow alive still, maybe more chapters soon, maybe not, maybe in a week, maybe in five years."

I just couldn't read through these chapters (as cringey as it felt) and through your comments (as wonderful as it felt) without leaving... something here.

I might write the next chapters properly on my last day at home tomorrow before leaving again, I might scribble them in the little notebook in the pocket of my uniform in the middle of the desert, to be typed out once I'm visiting home again - only God knows, and that's a bit exciting if you try to look at it through a positive lens! Hooray to uncertainty!

No but seriously. I'll do my best.

Until then. Keep being awesome.

With much love - seriously, SO much love - Luna.

Holy shit I'm about to press that "Publish" button. Okay. Here goes nothing.