I'll look after you

02

'S P E N C E R'

I don't trust this.

I don't trust the fact that people are talking to me. And that they're asking questions and smiling at me. It's weird and nice at the same time. Maybe it's just new to me and I need to adjust myself.

"Why did you actually leave Valley High?" A blonde girl asked me, as we sat down on the ground of the PE hall.

"My mom didn't like their quality of education." I lied. It was a made up lie that, I had thought of the second I knew I was going to transfer schools.

"Really? I heard Valley High is a good school." A guy with buzzed hair who was sitting next to Skylar with his arm around her shoulders.

My heart started beating faster and I could feel the unease in my stomach. Before I could answer Roman's comment, Asher jumped in.

"Do you live close here?" He asked me. "Uhm not really, it takes me like thirty minutes with the bus." I answered.

"You don't have a car?" Skylar asked me, but it didn't sound mean or something. But more like curiosity.

"No, I have a license. But I just hate driving, I have no clue how I received my license." I answered honestly.

Theo held his hand up to give me a high five "same." He said. I high fived him and answered more questions that were valid to ask someone that was new.

Finally after a hour we were dismissed, Skylar and I walked to the girls changing room. "Are you Roman in a relationship, or am I just seeing things?" I asked Skylar carefully.

Skylar looked at me and chuckled and her cheeks turned red. "Yes, we have been together for a year." She smiled proudly. "You guys are really cute together."

"Thank you." Skylar smiled at me, with red cheeks.

To be honest, I never really talked with my classmates. But I love talking with Skylar, she's just someone that can keep a conversation going without trying.

We changed into our clothes and talked more about this school. "Oh hello Skylar." Suddenly a girl with dark blonde hair said with a fake smile.

"What do you want, Victoria." Skylar's face changed into anger. "Calm down, aren't you going to introduce me to your friend?"

"Like you said she's my friend, so fuck off." Skylar said annoyed. My eyes widened at her words, not because she was showing a different side. But because she said my friend.

It's my first day and I made a friend? This is not real isn't it? 

Victoria rolled her eyes at Skylar and then turned to me. "Hi, I'm Victoria." She introduced herself to me with a smile.

"Hi?" I said confused. "You must be Spencer? I have heard a lot about you." She said raising her eyebrows.

What did she hear about me? Was it good or bad? Fuck.

"Uhm yeah, I'am." I said still confused, I looked at Skylar who also looked confused.

"I just wanted to say, you're way too pretty to hang out with Skylar she's not worth it. Why don't you join my group?" Victoria said with no emotion in her voice.

My face dropped at her words. Not because she called me pretty. But the way she had the guts to talk about Skylar, while she is literally standing next to me.

I looked at Skylar who was looking confused, but didn't say anything. I had no absolute intention to say yes. But it's for sure that I wouldn't want to hang out with Victoria. She reminded me too much of someone.

"No, thanks." I tried to sound polite. Victoria and Skylar looked confused at me, but a second later I saw a smile on Skylar's face. 

"Ugh what ever trash belongs to trash." Victoria turned around and walked away. I frowned my eyebrows "she seems like a bitch." I whispered to Skylar.

"I know she is, just ignore her." Skylar sighed out. "Let's get out of here." She added.

We walked out of the changing rooms and see three boys waiting outside. "What took you so long?" Roman asked his girlfriend and he took her hand.

Skylar and I looked at each other and she gave me a smile. "Nothing." Skylar said shrugging her shoulders.

When we all stood there, I felt awkward. Since I wasn't sure if I should join them since I just met them. "I have to go to my locker, I'll see you tomorrow." I said with a small smile.

"Wait, are you sure?" Theo asked me. "Yes, I'm sure." I answered. "I'll see you guys tomorrow."

They waved at me and we then parted ways, I took a left turn and then unlocked my locker. When I looked through the locker, to find my notebook.

My eyes widened when, I didn't find my black notebook. I immediately grabbed my backpack and unzipped it with trembling hands.

As I searched through my stuff, my heart was beating each second more faster. A knot stars to tighten in my stomach when I can't to seem to find it. "Fuck." I mumbled to myself.

I slammed my locker shut and tried to calm myself down. "It's okay, you left it at home." I whispered to myself and made my way to the exit.

As I made my way to the bus stop, I grabbed my phone and saw that I received a text message.

Mom <3

FROM: mom:
Spence, there's an emergency at the hospital so I'm working a night shift and day shift. So I will see you tomorrow night. Please text me when you're done with school.

FROM:me
Hi, it's okay. I'm on my way to the bus stop. Today went well<3

She was active two hours ago, and I know how brutal the hours are as a nurse. So I just turned off my phone and waited patiently for my bus.

When I finally got out of the bus and arrived at the bus stop that is close to my house. I walked my way through the streets.

I unlocked the door of my house and immediately closed it behind me. I wasn't necessarily scared of being home alone, but it wasn't my favourite thing either.

After changing out of my school uniform to some comfortable clothes. I had received an assignment for my English class, that the rest of my class had made. But I have to make it since it's important for my grade.

As I'm working on my laptop, I suddenly remembered my notebook that I couldn't find. So I open the drawers of my desk and tried to find my notebook.

But it wasn't there, instead it's out there somewhere. The notebook is filled with my emotions and thoughts and it's there somewhere.

Someone is probably even reading it right now, or worse it's someone from my school. I sit down on my bed in defeat and try to not have a panic attack.

I knew this was day was going too good to be true. I knew that I would go through it all again.

I knew, but yet stupid me had hope that it would change. But that's the thing it won't change.

It never will.