Dear Jun

Eleven

Dear Jun,

My persistence has been useful in convincing you to be in a better state sooner than later.

The desire to finally let go of the rope you've held on your whole life, wanting to give things up... has disappeared, as now that I'm here, always by your side.

Even if you can't feel me or acknowledge my presence, I'm always here, believing in you and making sure you won't stray too far from the dark again.

Even if fate breaks us apart again, making me forget about you, or making you forget about me, I will always be there by your side.

I wish I could transfer all the pain you're feeling to me, so you don't have to suffer anymore. Even if it means it has to be momentarily—anything to lessen it.

Yet I know this isn't the best option—never. You will hate the idea of just giving the pain to someone else, especially if it's to me. You don't want me to suffer too—I had experienced many timelines of hell that I couldn't escape from. That's how much you love me, and I'm forever grateful for you.

You know, Jun? You and I are similar in a lot of ways. Discovering myself in the process makes me love you even more and more, which in turn, makes you fall for me harder. Even after knowing a lot of things, especially the bad... You never left my side.

That's why I'll never let you go. Not one bit. I will find you, always and forever.

I've been focusing on making sure you won't disappear. Protecting your already fragile heart that was about to be coated with darkness again. Your energy has been so low that I wish I could do something to transfer my mana supply to you when I'm so far away, unable to reach you from where I am now. Your migraines have been frequent but I'm doing what I can to at least make you focus on things that make you smile.

Even if you're currently far away from me.

I must keep doing what I can do, and make sure to never leave my sight from you.

I know you'll be home soon. It's uncertain whether you're here with me or somewhere far away with the way I'm writing, but...

Rest assured that I'll never forget about you.

Trust me on this, Jun.

With love that never wavers,

Arthur Pendragon