A change of my heart

Mindless.

Some days have passed since me and Sky started our plan. I could see P'Payu burning, his face red and all and it was super fun. me and sky would die laughing. Sky is my bestfriend and he means the whole world to me, he knows everything about me, his past hurts me as much it hurts him and the thing that P'Payus friend caused him so much more pain made me angry. the old hag and his friends are the same and I will get my revenge. he hurt my friend so I will hurt his.  But i have FREAKING STUPID ASS TESTS AND ASSESSMENTS. If it wasn't for that I would have sliced their throat, well not literally but I would destroy them. me and sky were eating lunch wit Por, Sig and Pel, pel was simping over P'Payu as always and It annoyed me to the core. Not because I used to like pel or anything but because he annoyed me. as we ate Sig started teasing sky out of nowhere "Soooo Sky got a new lover hmm" Sig said, i clutched my chopsticks I was about to speak up but suddenly everyone started freaking out. I was confused and so was sky, 

pel looked at her phone and screamed in terror, ouch my ears hurt but what the fuck happened? "Oh my god! they changed the damn deadline! It's not after 6 more days it's tomorrow!" she yelled as everyone froze. what the hell. TOMORROW?! sky literally flew out his seat and sprinted back to his condo and everyone started panicking as they packed their stuff.Out of everyone I was the most doomed. I didn't even freaking start. I just went straight home, ditching the rest of my classes as i slammed the front door shut, my Ma yelling at me but I just ignored it as I went straight to work. I turned into superman as I worked like crazy, skipping dinner and staying up till 3am, I was finally done. I felt like crying out of joy, my under eye was dark and I looked high but I just plopped down on my hard and cold floor and fell asleep, relaxed knowing I would pass tomorrow with flying colours.

I woke up grumpy from what I thought was my alarm but not it was a call, Sky was calling. I lazily picked the phone up "waa sky wha-" "RAIN WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?" He yelled making me flinch awake "Woah woah what?" i asked in confusion "RAIN DO YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS?" He asked making me check time and shit...Im late...I forgot to set up my alarm. I jumped up, not even putting on my spiderman underwear as I throw on jeans and the school white shirt over my home rusty Tshirt. I take my project and sprint to my car, skipping breakfast and ignoring my mom calling me as I start driving. I park my car and run to the proffesor. but apparently i was late by 2 minutes. 2 freaking minutes. i start begging the proffesor on the verge of tears but he just dismissed me annoyed. that's right. no teacher ever liked me. they always treated me differently. how stupid of me to even fucking beg. as I leave the room another late student comes with a project worse then mine and hers gets accepted by the teacher and praised whiled mines got called dogshit. As I go outside I see sky waiting for me but I don't want to burden him. I sneak past him as I throw my dear project, my baby in the trash. my legs lead me to the only other place I know.

I wander mindless, it starts to rain but i didn't care. I didn't want to go home and burden Ma, I didn't want to burden anyone close to me. the only person and place that came to mind was P'Payu and his garage. I may hate that man but for some reason I can only think about him now. I would much rather have him annoy me and tease me if it means to get my mind off of this, he is going to be my distraction, nothing more. I slowly reach his garage, i stand outside drenched in rain, I see saifa running out as he noticed me. he held on to me and asked me if I was ok. Saifa is P'Payu's brother. but he is different and kind, nothing like P'Payu. I respect him. whenever I went to P'Payu's garage he would treate me nicely like I was a person. But this time I could only utter one word "P'Payu.." I muttered. I refused to go inside so Saifa calls him worried. Time passes and I just stand in the rain, in the dark until some headlights falls on my wet figure. then I see P'Payu rushing out of the car and running towards me as he grabed my shoulders. 

He looked worried, no no remember rain that he is only acting. because boys want nothing more then your...your... Sky's words just repeated in my head, blocking out P'Payu's voice that was asking me what was wrong and pleading me to speak. after a while I did "I failed." i muttered out making him pause "I couldn't meet the deadlines and I failed. Im a failure. I worked so hard but the results were zero just because of my stupidity." I say breathless as P'Payu cups my face and reassures me. I can feel my heart beat a little faster at his comforting words but that's blocked by the absolute rage I feel when I see this man. why is he doing all of this for anyways? Before I knew it he dragged me inside and put me on his bed wipping my hair with his towel, then he hugged me tight. "You are not a failure, you are the most hardworking person I have ever met Rain. and I'm sure that you will prove everyone who thinks that wrong. even yourself." as these words leave his lips I feel my rage disapearing with my control as tears start falling down my eyes, i start to cry as that man holds me tight telling me that it's going to be fine and that I'm enough. at this point I forgot about right and wrong i just cried in his arms as he comforts me until I fell asleep.