A change of my heart

Regret.

I woke up in the old mans arms as the memories from last night flooded in. I was stupid enough to be fragile infront of him. but nonetheless one the things he said stucked to my brain "You make me feel things Rain, you give me motivation and a reason to breath." damn it. my heart is gonna explode, what the hell was that? I look at the sleeping man as I wiggle out of his grip and leave without a word and head straight to sky's condo. As he opens the door he yells at me for dispearing yesterday. i sheepishly apologize as he lets me in. Inside I tell him everything. Sky first curses at the air and then curses at the damn teacher and then comforts me a little before scolding me for not coming to him. but he doesn't speak about the incident inside that old hags house. After a while of silence Sky slowly asked "Did he do anything?" I tilted my head, confused "What?" "Nothing, just stay safe." Sky said getting up "Im going to order take out ok" he smiled  as I smiled back. 

After that day I ignored P'Payu like the plaque, he sent me hundreds of messeges and calls and even showed up at my university but I just hid from him. It was just regret for letting my guard down in front of him. but then I realized that I had to win him over to break him so now there I was standing in front of his garage with a bag of snacks. I slowly go in as his staffs greets me. they lead me to a room with a table and chair as I sit down, and after a while P'Payu arrives, as his gaze falls on me he stands there like he is processing something, he slowly approches me with a pissed look on his face but their was a hint of worry that made my heart beat a little bit faster. he stopped right infront of me and stared me down, pissed. "Care to tell me what in the world happened?" he asked making me gulp, I quickly thought up an excuse "uh...sorry P'...I was embarassed...so I just...sorry" i say as I look up at him with an unintentional pout, his gaze softens as he sighs, he proceeds to tell me it's ok but he made me promise to never do something like that again. I give him the bag of snacks as he smiles, I can feel my neck heating up. then he tells me to stay and do homework and I immedietly say yes! anything to get close to him to make my plan work. 

I start doing my home work, I wish I could focuse more but the way this man is looking at me like we are married with 56 kids is driving me wild, I don't know what the hell is happening to me, since the day I cried in his arms and he comforted me, telling me those sweet ass lies, my heart just beats faster and faster. I did figure out that I also liked men some weeks ago when I started having gay panic when mine and sky's faces are close and also when I find myself staring at his soft lips, but with him my heart didn't race as fast as this- of course it didn't we are bestfriend i do love him but not romantically- wait wait WAIT NO I ALSO DON'T LIKE P'PAYU ROMANTICALLY WHAT AM I THINKING! ok calm down Rain...deep breaths. just focuse on your home work and not this hot old hag staring through your soul. "Let's go out for dinner." I snap out of my thoughts as he speaks. I say yes immediately. oh boy he was just making this so damn easy for me! He smiles as he leads me out of his garage and to a resturant.

The 'date' goes well, excluding the fact that I announced to the whole resturant that I was going to win him over and that everyone cheered for me. that was damn embarassing. And on top of that he just kept teasing me and laughing at me. As I walked outside all mad he chases after me chuckling as he holds my hand and tells me he wasn't laughing at me. and after bantering with him a little he says "First change 'stupid boy' into 'cute boy' then we will see." and that made my head explode as I imagined different senerios of him calling me that with so much affection making my heart flutter. I snap out of it and curse myself in my head. damn it, what the hell is happening to me! P'Payu then patts my head and leaves, leaving me all flustered like kid who got caught stealing candy. I crouch down on the ground, burying my face in my knees "Thats cheating P'Payu!" i yell to the air, I was convinced that I was pissed but the smile that slipped through my lips betrayed the emotion of anger I showed.

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Haiii! sorry this might be short but I'm trying to post regularly, I'm also busy with schoolwork and other work and I'm just trying to maintain them all! and I know many people are confused at the direction of the story but I will probably make an authors note explaining it if yall want! i write ffs for fun and the last thing I would want is my readers being confused so bear with me! also make sure to vote for this story if you like it and comment your suggetions and what I should do! just know that I read comments! see yall in the next chapter! love yalllll!!!!!<3