Always You

4: Gone for a Day

I wake up feeling sore, I did not sleep well last night. I checked my phone to see if I had a text from her, but nothing. I made my breakfast a cup of black coffee, I wanted to call her, but I think it will be too much.  I dressed for work and leave, on my way there I passed in front of her work, but I couldn't see her. All day I passed checking my phone and anxious, why she's ghosting me, is she tired of me already? or she hates me. Did I say something? I was losing my mind. I was walking like a zombie in work, I just hear like mumbling of the people around me. I went home at the end of the day. I walked around the house back and forth. The night came in my stomach was growling, I haven't eaten since breakfast, I was so concentrated in thinking of Kloe I forgot to eat. I went out and got pizza. when again I passed in front of Kloe work. I see her, I got so happy, I wanted to call her, but maybe she needs space. So, I parked a couple feet away from her work, away enough that I can see her walking around and talking to the costumers. She is so beautiful, even when she doesn't mean to be. When she spaces out looking at nothing how her eyes widen, is so cute. I spent this 4 hours just watching her. She was getting out of her shift when I see that guy Dylan, walking towards her as she goes out. I can't hear what they are saying but she looks mad, he tries to grab her, but she pushes him. I tighten my hands, I wish I can go over there and punch the guy, but how will I explain I was here at this exact moment. Then another guy comes out the store and pushes Dylan to the floor, he pulls Kloe with him. Who is this guy? why is he touching her? Dylan Walks away from them after screaming dick and asshole to them. I started my engine and followed Dylan a couple streets, slowly behind him, when I see him walking to a bad neighborhood. I turn off my car and started following him on foot, he's so drunk he doesn't notice me. He walks to his small house all deteriorated, I stopped, he drops he's keys on the floor, this is my chance, I look around and this place is deserted. I run to him and I grab the keys from the floor.

"Let me help you bud" I say to him putting the single key he had on the door.

"Thanks man, I'm so wasted" he says not recognizing me

We both walked inside, and I closed the door behind me, he throws himself on a dirty brown sofa he had, his tv was on, lighting the small Livingroom. 

"you can leave the keys on the table" he says scratching his eyes, I just stood there watching him.

"You don't recognize me, don't you?"

He stops scratching and takes a look at me. He squints his eyes. "Look man, if I owe you money, I promise I'll pay"

I walk towards him and put myself on top of him, with my knees on his sides, I grab his shirt and pull him closer to my face. He grabs my hands and tries to get out. 

"Stop, please" he says scared

"I believe I told you to stay away from Kloe" I said to him full of rage. "But men like you never understand right?"

"Kloe? oh, oh, yes you are that guy, I'm sorry men I promise I won't" he was shaking and his voice breaking in fear.

"I don't believe you" I started punching his face repeatedly until my knuckles hurt. I was out of breath, I let go of his shirt and he felled limp on the sofa. I move and walk backwards; I look at him and his face is destroyed. Fuck, what do I do? I look at his kitchen and his stove are propane, and at his living room table was a small box of cigarettes. I walk to the kitchen turn on all the burners, then I turn on one cigarette in the box. I take a cloth from my pocket I grab the doorknob clean it and walked outside, I closed it and look around once more, I saw nobody. I walked fast to my car. I got in and took a big breath, i calm down a little. I clean my hands with a wet wipe that I had in my car. I waited a couple min till I hear a big explosion, I felt so happy. Then I started the car and went back home. I took a bath and thought of Kloe, her voice, how she looks at me and looks down ashamed. I touched myself, it's been so long since I do that, no one has ever made me so exited enough to make me do it, it felt amazing. I went out in my towel and burned the cloth with the blood in the kitchen. When I hear the door. I turned the fire off and throw the remains in the sink. I walked fast and open the door. It was Kloe, she looks like she was crying.

"Are you ok?" I said worried

When she looks at me her face turned red. "oh my god, how can you open the door like that" she covers her eyes.

"I'm sorry, but come in, I will put something on" I run to my room and left the door open on purpose, I wanted her to look at me, even though she says she's lesbian. I hope she said that just to pushed me away, but there's only one way to find out, I have to pushed her to the limit, forcing situations on her. I got dressed and went out she was sitting on my sofa her face was still red. "is ok, I'm dressed" i joked. "You just caught me getting out of shower"

"Is 1:30 in the morning"

"Yes well, I couldn't sleep"

"Where you with a girl?"

"What no, but what about you? what were you doing out there at this time? you know is dangerous out there"

"Yes, well I couldn't sleep ither" she rubs her hands between her thighs. I walk and sit next to her.

"what's going on?" I move her hair with my hand, she fast saw my bruised hand, she grabs it.

"What the hell lucas, what happened?" she looks at my hand all worried

"oh no worry, I just got in a fight with a guy on the street" she looks at me confused, shes not buying the story. "Look, I got my problems to" I add

"Ok and why don't you have bruises on your face to?"

"I'm a good fighter" I brag

"hm, really?"

"yes, but don't change the subject why are you here?"

"I've been thinking, and I don't think our friendship is a good thing, is not going to help you heal or forget about my sister, for the obvious reasons" she stands and walks to the window.

"what? I don't understand, what makes you believe that?"

"I just know, I mean and yesterday was an obvious reason"

"What about yesterday?"

"Come on, you are talking about her and all, then telling me that you only date girls like me, you are just covering your pain with me, because I look like her" she looks stress out

"hey" I grab her from her shoulders to calm her. "I am not covering your sister memory with you, in fact I have forgotten all about her, since I've been with you" she just looks up at me with her puppy eyes that makes my heart race. "Today was horrible, without you in it and is a proveen fact that I like you a lot and is not because you look like linda, in fact is the whole opposite, you are so different from her, not only inside but you also got physical traits"

"Like what" she says lowering her voice looking so submissive, it turns me on so bad.

"Your eyes are bigger, your chin is smaller, your hair is waiver and your smell" i got closer to her neck and passed my nose till her ear, I cloud feel her skin getting chicken pocks by the feel in my hands that were touching her arms. 

"Ok well" she pushes herself away from me. "I don't like men, so that's good"

"Why is that a good thing?" I said trying to control myself from grabbing her and throwing her on the floor and do the unthinkable.

"Because then our friendship is genuine, not only sexual tension, so no trying funny business"

"Yes, lucky me" I said sarcastically

"Exactly, now can I sleep at your sofa, is too late to go back home"

"Be my guest" we both stood there looking at each other when we both burst in laughter. She was my new reason to live, to be good. I love her laughter and the sound of her voice, if friends is what she wants I'll be that, for as long as I can. of course, I'll keep trying to change her mind. I can feel she's lying, by the way she reacts when I'm close and I love the thrill that gives me when I pushed her to the limit. The way her body reacts and the looks she gives. It gives chills down my spine, can't wait to call her mine.