29AM (revive)

diving

you know

you notice

but you would never bring it up

I wish you would?

i want to talk about it but I can barely reach the words from myself to mention it

I have to decide to just 'fuck it' 

when I send the message saying

'sorry I was off, I was stuck in my head'

how do I tell you that when you notice that I need you to pull me out

that I am drowning on my own 

yet I always knew how to swim

but no lessons taught me how to stay afloat like you do

I wish I could

but I can only try