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CHAPTER NINETEEN: PARENTING IS HARD

'KIM SUNOO'

I sighed as the sound of sun-hee's cries reached my ears. It's the 100th time now. I walk up to her carriage and take her in my arms. i stare at her blankly who is still crying..ugh i wish sunghoon was there. Whenever he holds sun-hee she immediately stops crying..like...seriously what kind of magic does he have done on her?

"aigoo, stop crying sun-hee daddy is right here with you" i paced back and forth in the room trying to make her stop crying. Maybe she's hungry? i thought, i walk to the table where her bottle is.

i grab her bottle and made her drink the milk. She was really hungry, i sighed in relief..finally now i can work in peace. Today is my day to take care of sun-hee so i am working from home and i couldn't even complete half of my work.

once sun-hee stopped crying i made her lay on the bed beside me.
i sighed in relief, as i started to type on my laptop again. I'm really tired right now, all the pressure of the company, and taking care of sun-hee made me exhausted

i know we can just hire a nanny but i don't trust anyone with sun-hee because she's the only family i have left, she's my sisters gift to me. I know it's hard to take care of her but still,i can do it

as i was working i didn't realised that it was already 6 in the night now, i have been working for 3 hours straight. Thank god sun-hee didn't woke up.

i streached my arms, feeling tired. I looked at the cute and small creature besides me and smiled, she resembles my sun-ah so much. I smiled sadly, knowing that sun-hee wouldn't be able to have mother's love but i won't let her feel it. She have me---- and sunghoon also. we will protect her no matter what

"sun-hee, wake up baby" i gently patted her to wake her up, she stirred in her sleep, her hands turned into a tiny fist as she opened her eyes. I cooed at the sight, gosh she's so cute

i picked her up in my arms, thankfully she didn't cried. i walked outside the room going in the hall, it's almost time for sunghoon to come home. Thank god, i would finally get some rest

i made her sit on her baby chair and walked in the kitchen. I wasn't going to cook anything because the chefs already cooked the meal, i would just make sun-hee's meal.

i made her meal and sat infront of her, i held the sppon near her mouth "open your mouth..say ahhh" i said trying to make her open her mouth but she just stred at me blankly.

gosh, i tried 5 times but she didn't opened her mouth, instead she have the audacity to cry. As sun-hee's cries echoed through the house i just sat there, rethinkung my life decesions

i don't know why but i also started crying with her loudly, yosh, i am a weirdo but can't help it. I continued to cry. I am litterally becoming mentally unstable

"what ìs happening here?" i stopped cryin and looked at sunghoon, a sigh of relief left my mouth as i stood up from the chair, i grabed his shoulder making him sit on the chair instead.

"feed your princess, she don't want to eat from my hands" sunghoon just sighed. He's tired i think. Wait. am i concerned? not in a million years.

i truend around to walk out of the kitchen "I'm going to sleep so don't disturb me" i started to climb the stairs and went to my room.

i layed on the bed and sighed heavily..gosh, parenting is hard

'PARK SUNGHOON'

I put aside my bag and looked at sun-hee who was looking at me with her wide doe eyes. i cooed at that, smiling warmly

"let's eat, shall we?" i grabbed the spoon "say ahh" she happily opened her mouth, allowing me to feed her

sun-hee is the only one who make me happy, she is not my biological daughter, but she is MY daughter and i love her more than anyone. I will protect sun-hee at any cost because she is all i have

i sighed. Only if things didn't turn put that way. Maybe me and sunoo would be happy together, i don't hate him, no...i can't hate him, never. I just can't bring myself to forget the way he broke our 15 years  friendship over his 6 months of relationship.

i scoffed, what is the point of thinking these things now? nothings gonna change. Nor i am gonna forgive him. I love him, but can't forgive him

sorry for not updating, i was just a little busy