𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖 𝕘𝕒𝕞𝕖

the heart wants what it wants

"...She went and talked to Sierra and I was trying to explain it to her-"

"Did she let you speak?" Kordell cut Miguel off. "Yeah she did, I was able to speak and you know say why I did what I did, but she was just so hurt. She was very understanding, saying she wasn't mad at me getting to know her, or testing and exploring, she just felt disrespected; and I understand that completely. I really pushed her off that edge."

"She was going off on you bro, though. Is that how she's going to react every single time?" Kendall started up again. "You've got a great girl in Sierra, if she isn't going to try and fix things, forget it."

A couple of the boys agreed. "But she did listen, Kendall." Ezra pointed out and the majority of the boys agreed with him. "No, I know that. I wouldn't want this normally, but I did this twice, and she explicitly told me how she would react and I went and did it anyway. Nothing she did was out of context." Miguel defended her.

"I warned you." Ezra said sympathetically. "But why did she come after us?" Kendall ignored him. "Because everyone is in her ear telling her this and that." Kordell said. "Yeah, and everyone needs to stop because it isn't helping." He said standing up. The boys followed and they walked down the stairs together.

"Yo," he called out but didn't yell. "Why are we trying to feed Maia some shit on a situation she's in. It's not helping."

Maia looked up from where she was sitting talking to Sierra. "What are you talking about?" Serena asked him. "Not just the girls, the guys too. I understand you're trying to help but please it's not helping." He said very aggravated.

"Okay we need to chat," Maia said standing up from the couch. "Do you want to have a chat with all three of us?" Sierra asked. "No, we don't need 20 different opinions. Come here Miguel." She said softly.

Miguel walked over like a kicked puppy behind her. "I apologise for not listening to you earlier. That wasn't fair of me." She said when they sat down again in the doc. "You don't have to apologise. I just want to start from the beginning. From the beginning I told her I had a very strong connection with you. I never did not once tell her I didn't have a very strong connection with you."

"Right." Maia said understandingly. "I won't say that me and her did not have something good, we did, we kissed, we cuddled, we hugged, we did all of that. It happened and I'm not going to hide that from you. But that's dead. I don't care about that shit anymore. I care about me and you in here." Miguel told her.

"Miguel how can I believe that when you brought her back and fully recoupled with her?" Maia tried to explain. "I know, but I told her, 'me bringing you back does not mean I'm choosing you. I'm not recoupling with you." Miguel explained to her.

"Was the connection between you and her so much stronger than what we built, that you said 'fuck Maia'?" Her eyes started to sting again

"It was never stronger." Miguel fit in. "But you still said fuck me, Miguel. Do you know how heartbreaking it is to spend an intimate night with you, then a few days later see you in a similar fucking position with another girl? It's heartbreaking and it's humiliating." She started to cry again and stood up because she physically be near him.

"Maia, I'm so sorry. I didn't think of it like that. I didn't think that it would come to this." He said standing up but not walking up to where she had stopped.

I know how idiotic this may sound, but I really want her back. I've got a lot of feelings towards her.

"I'm sorry that I did that, Maia. I know you care. I've seen how you care from the moment I walked in here. I see how much you feel and I see how much I fucked up. There was not a moment I was not thinking about you. Just because I wanted to pursue things with her does not mean I have to, and still want to. I'm trying to express that I want you. I want you."  He eventually walked up to her and as he placed his hand on her waist, she sobbed and he held He slowly brought them to sit back down