All Your Lies And Promises (Eremika)

Tuesday: "Im always here for you"

Third person pov

Something dark swirled through the wind, a constant thumping feeling loopy. An emotion Eren hasn't felt for all his year on earth.

Something was twisting his insides, like something was about to begin and Eren wasn't sure if he welcomed it or opposed it.

He wasn't quite sure what was happening but every time he was with Mikasa he felt a heavy pressure on his chest. He chalked it up to eating something bad, but as time went on he felt it grow.

He felt it at its heaviest Whenever Jean draped an arm on her shoulder or when colt from their class would initiate a conversation with her, asking her in a much higher voice then normal if her weekend was good or even when Reiner would glance at her for a long moment.

Eren would shrug off the feeling, letting out a heavy breath through his nose before putting his attention elsewhere, but it always dragged back to Mikasa.

He decided he didn't like it.

Not even a little.

He didn't like how he would swipe down his notifications and see if she had texted, and he detested when his thoughts would linger with the thought of her, never straying too far in his mind. 

He despised the whole thing.

So he started distancing, unnoticeable obviously. He knew he was leaving soon, so he shouldn't get attached. He wouldn't get attached just for it to go nowhere, not again. Eren could count on all ten fingers the times where's he's gotten attached. Which 2 out of 10 actually stayed.

So he distanced.

Starting off small of course, he'd take a little longer than normal texting her back, made up lies on why he couldn't hangout after class when all he was doing was laying in his bed. Wasn't as talkative when walking with her, but he didn't do that often, because afterward he felt like an asshole seeing her smile downturn a little, making him undo the whole process. He'd text her back in an instant and hopped on any chance she wanted to hangout.

Then the feeling would come back.

And with that so did the distancing.

His apple crunched while he'd taken a bite, his thoughts swirling, he'd be leaving soon. A week.

When Christmas break came everyone would be leaving, the difference was he wouldn't be.

His eyes gazed on each face while everyone laughed about something he didn't catch, he'd miss them. He squeezed the apple harder.

It felt like his dad was caging him, making his own path for Eren. But Eren couldn't do anything about it, he knew one day he'd have to step up he just didn't think it would be so soon.

He didn't think he'd be taken out of school on his last year right before he graduated. He thought he had at least an ounce of control.

But his father reminded him he didn't, and he'd be celebrating his graduation by pressing a 'submit' button on his final test.

He was going to tell them Thursday, everyone was leaving Saturday morning so it would give them enough time to say their goodbyes but not enough for them to be so upset.