Swans mate for life-Why can't we?

It's Really Over

Strange but true, my time is over with you.

What's the point of blocking someone whose number you've memorized?

 It is for me, not you.

I feel so guilty, what if you reach out to me and I'm not there for you?

God, how you were always there for me. Even when it wasn't best for you.

I wish I could be that loyal to you and bleed out at your whim as you would have at once for me.

I have squandered this connection but maybe that's just you being in my head.

Regardless you are blocked, and yet. I still can't tell if I love you or hate you or hate myself.

I hope without you I can learn to love myself without using your love for me as a substitute. 

I know you'll be better off without me, and I'll be better off without you.

But if I know that, then why does it feel like I just can't accept it.

This is just one of those things that doesn't grant closure I suppose

 But lastly I must ask

  If swans mate for life , why can't we?