Secret In Our Hearts We Held

Chapter 7

(Jai)

We have driven to the third restaurant that Pavitra has on the list, and aside that. To be honest, I was scared to death, this has never happened to me, not in my experience of 2 months here or anywhere altogether. How could I trip on her like that? Did my mind stop processing how to stand? We planted our feet straight, maintained the balance on the two feet and well, to my defense the elevator was hugely crowded, not underestimating the size of it...

And I was mortified that if anything- no- anything else could have happened, rather than saving her from getting struck by my body, if by a little more force if I had crushed her, our bodies weren't connected but they weren't far enough to to- Fuck, I was so hot in there.

I was a mess to handle, not to forget mostly on my part of the behavior. And the way she was so small, tiny between my arms. I had opened my eyes to see her staring at me, like a ghost. God, oh-... God she would have taken it the wrong way? I had no intentions, clearly.

And as a matter of fact to prove that, I did not speak the whole ride, not after the experience of... seeing her from so close. I panicked for no reason, but... god how breathtaking. Her eyes looked into mine like they know they know what I thought that instant... That instant, I had my blood run furiously inside me that every part of me wanted to crash in her, I liked her near me, my body, my eyes were reluctant to leave hers, as if she was a piece of my possession, I know I sound mad- but as my gaze moved from her dark eyes to the parted plum lips and her having chest exasperating with mine, it matched with the gush of blood pooled in me. "It's alright, Mr. Vats."

"Huh." I came back from whatever land I went to. My hands were shivering on the gear with the after shock, she obviously noticed that. I didn't say a thing after... I just drove quietly. She has fallen silent after a while, again with fidgeting hands on her mid thigh skirt, I had resisting keeping my eyes off them and successfully before- but not this time- It was wrong and that's all pep talk I gave myself throughout the three previous restaurants we went- while she tasted the food and did her work. She hadn't asked me to join-after the obvious elevator incident- The fuck? Was I going to refer to it again? The elevator incident.

I saw her testing the starters, a freshly cooked cutlet in her hands, taking in the aroma of it. She had a dimple under the left side of her chin as she smiled. It wasn't there when she was trapped in the situation with me. Geez, Jai... why are you referring to the situation again? I scolded myself, cutting the signals so that these thoughts aren't pushed to my mind from this conscious part -not the one on my head, but one beneath the waist.

"Here. You have to try this one." My partner from Event management came walking to me, with the cutlet in her hands, her body moved gracefully with every step, if I hadn't stopped my consciousness- you know, then I'd have lingered my gaze on her every curve, but my consciousness was out of league... there was no use of that here, rather on the clubbing that me and Dev have to go, because I might be going mad- seeing a student in the light of a woman I'd- 'Fuck'. I cursed at myself.

She was approaching me, and I was out of breath, as if someone had punched me in the gut. What is wrong with you? I stepped one step back, she stopped, eyes falling on my movement. Shit, she saw it.

"Mr. Vats, would you join me for this one... I cannot decide." She said finally, taking place back at the woman, now serving more dishes.

I walked to her, and tasted a few starters. I liked them, at least better than we had at the previous two places. "It seems better." I said, blankly

"I know! Right." She looked at me with her doe eyes, the darkest of the moonless nights. I was forgetting to breathe with her .. great first walking now breathing what is next? Talking oh wait... that has happened already, I find my words difficult around her.