Secret In Our Hearts We Held

Chapter 11

(Pavitra)

It was 6:15 and I was still at home... Getting ready. When I should have been with Jai, taking care of arrangements, I took out my heels from the box, phone in hand and checked myself once again in the mirror. And I was ready, so were the girls, I had talked to them, they were waiting for me in the hall. Krishi was nervous. Her boyfriend had texted her and they'll be here any moment. Avira and I shared a look, Krishi was silly for being nervous. "Girl... you look gorgeous." Avira looked at me for assurance. "I swear... If I was him. I'd not let you leave this room...." Krishi was still thinking. Avira stared at me to do something. And before I could say something, we heard a knock at the door My mother had attended, so she called for us

"It's your date and our ride." Avira spoke. "Come out after us ok."

We both walked down, Ahaan gave us a tight smile. His eyes certainly were looking for Krishi. And here she was. Walking in her lavishing green gown, the shoulders of her dress were off, revealing her gorgeous carved collar bone. "Hi." She beamed up.

He was dumbstruck. "Ahaan." My mother coughed.

"Ab. Yeah. Hi... Am." He looked back at his mate Abhay, He handed him the box.

Avira and Me both held our hands, we were so excited for her, our silent screams were dying to get out. Krishi was wearing the corsage he gave her.

They were outside, so were Avira and Abhay. I hugged my mother, thanking her for the dress. We were at the door with my mother when I heard Krishi screaming. We turned towards her saw. Abhay was holding a box. "I know, It is late... But I have wanted to ask you since the very first day prom was announced. Which was not much long ago, and I didn't know I should have asked you not- that I know- I wanted to ask. God, save this poor child, he held her eyes, I could see it, his determination in asking. "So, will you let me be your Prom date?" He took out a corsage from the box. It matched her gown, Black.

Avira glanced at me, we made a pact that if there was no date. Then It will be a girls night. Her eyes were concerned. "Are you crazy?!" I scolded her. "Say yes! I giggled And just like that, my two girls had their prom dates. I sighed, my mother was looking at me.

"Don't look at me like this. Also... I have an event to look after. It's been a waste of a date for the person who'd have asked me." I shrugged, making her at ease.

We were there, at school. I was checking if everything was as Jai and I had planned. Krishi, Ahaan, Avira, and Abhay were gone. Well, I asked them to leave me as they enjoyed their day. I wanted to be alone and for them to have some double date time. Our staff and students nodded their hi at me. AS decided, there was an entry passage, decorated with blush flowers carpet on the ground, Fairy Lights as a walkthrough to the campus leading to the event area. Lights were necessary. When I exited the entrance. The crowd was in the open. The tables were arranged as I asked them, a lamp placed in the center of each, it was one with the batteries. There was a stage with a podium for the prom king and queen. It was as I thought it'd be. I checked my mental list as my strides led me to enter the party.

But there was something missing. Where is he? Where is Jai? Maybe he went home. He might be tired from all the work. But that didn't seem like- Jai. After being there for 3 days, he wasn't the guy who'd excuse himself on the main day. So, I continued my hunt, also while looking for anything that may have the possibility to be wrong with the catering and lights and seating or people have settled in and they have been served the specials that me and Jai have selected on the first day.

After, there was nothing wrong, apparently, I went inside towards the staff office. The only noise to hear was the POP music outside, it faded as I walked more inside the building and the sound of my heels rising in the juxtaposition of the light sound from DJ. And here I stand outside the Staff Room, which had its lights on. I  lifted my hand to knock at the door. But before I could, familiar voices hit my ears, it was of a woman laughing at the sound of something said by- him. He was there too, as it  seemed like it was my chemistry teacher. "Oh. Jai. That's really hilarious." She laughed.

I moved back from the door, feeling that it was wrong- why was I even here? I would have left him a message of my arrival. "It's good for us to stay here and chat... Outside they'd give us side eyes, you know." He said something, couldn't hear because it was barely audible and she- "Oh really Jai, I have never laughed that much. Also you might be bored with someone not your age, all day around these girls." Does she mean? It's literally him and I, co-managing the event you lazy rat.

I didn't want to stay here. "Yeah... I was wondering when to get along, but whenever I saw you, you were with one of my students." My teacher continued. She was young and seemed a year or two older than him. "I mean... Of course, girls at her age can be clingy." She laughed. I didn't hear him say anything. "Of course, she is my brightest student... But again. You know girls get attached very easily. One moment you are lenient with them, in another, they are in their own world of dreams."

I couldn't stay there anymore. I walked away from the staff office. My steps were loud and angry, but all I had in me was despair and disgust at my own self for being exactly the girl she has mentioned. I was-am attached, I had found him cute and all he ever did was act like a gentleman.

I know, I know I was at fault in this place. And... Now... Those thoughts disgusted me to my core. First was desire, then they scared me to my death but now... It was mixed with disgust and the mistake that seemed far from repair. He obviously isn't What am I saying? Of course he isn't going to think the same, and I know it was just my radical thoughts and they don't have to mean anything less than an effect of proximity, and general reaction of pheromones... It can be happening with anyone.. or just my silly crush or I don't know my morals are bent to such an extent that I can't think straight. Am I, that, wrong?

Of course I am wrong.