My Choise

Chapter 37💔

A/N note: I'm really sorry, but here we go......
And please remeber that it's only a story, created in my mind.
Go ahead. R❤️
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"Jimin, baby wake up, we must go to your doctor"

So we went to my gynecologist, she took my blood and now I was laying on some bed in dark room

She pulled up my shirt and gave something cold on my stomach

"It's only a gel, don't worry"

Then she turned off rest of lights in the room and turned on the ultrasound

"What is it?" I asked when I heard some fast sound

"That's your baby's heart, Jimin"

"Oh" I said and closed my eyes, but the sound of beating heart was resoning in my ears

"And here it is" She chirped and I looked at the monitor and I saw it, little spot there and then I saw the beating heart.

My eyes filled with tears. I felt Jungkook's grip on my hand and I looked at him, he was staring at me without blinking

"So, Jimin, you should start to use this vitamins and we'll set up another appointment, and if everything's okay, you'll come in every month"

We were sitting in her office

"Wait, we are not keeping the baby" Jungkook said and I closed my eyes

"But I thought that..." she mumbled, and looked at me

"Mr.Park are you sure?"

I nodded and wiped my tears.

"You are 6 weeks pregnant, you still have some time to think about it"

"Is nothing to thinking about, mrs.doctor. please preare an abortion papers"

Jungkook said in cold voice and let go of my hand. I felt terrible, tears were falling from my eyes.

She prepared the papers and gave them to me, and then she looked at me and gave something other in my hand too

We came at home, the ride was quiet. We came in our bedroom, I sat on bed and started cry

"Why are you crying Jimin?" He asked and sat next to me

"I don't know I feel teribbly alone, Jungkook"

"But I'm right here"

"No, you're not, you're not here, not really"

"Jimin, what are you talking about?"

"You didn't asked what I really want" I sobbed

"And what do you want, Jimin?" He asked with cold voice and it hurted me

"I want you to be like you, I don't know this Jungkook, you are so cold to me, I'm scared, feeling like if I did something wrong, feel like shit. And you keep distance from me. Since you know you didn't hug me, you didn't told me that you love me.
Do you still love me, Jungkook?"

"Of course I love you, Jimin. But I'm scared too, I freaking out and I don't know what to do, or say, or... Jimin, I still love you the same. I always will. No matter what"

"So be here, be with me, tell me that everything will be all right, tell me that we will be still happy even if I'll kill my baby."

"Jimin" he stood up and walked throught room there and back, fisting his own hair

"Jimin" he kneeled in front of me and looked at me

"You want to keep the baby?" He asked and I felt and heard the fear in his voice