My Choise

Chapter 40💕

I was back at home. Dad and Taemin left in Korea, but mom stayed with me to help me. Tae and Yoongi were back too.

Tae was holding Saem almost two hours, before he started cry from hunger and I left in my room to feed him.

I was surprised that after birthgiving were my pecs filled with milk. I haven't big boobs as women, but they were bigger then before, I looked like if I had big pecs's muscles, and my nipples were swollen and sensitive.

Mom helped me a lot with this. She showed me how to massage them to not hurt so much and helped me to learn how to feed Saem

It hurted when he was drinking, but he was huge eater. So it didn't last long and he slept all night. So I can sleep too.

I was on diet I wanted to have healthy milk for Saem, so when January ended I was on my original weight, only my stomach was still like jelly and I wasn't able wear my old pants, because of my ass.

In the middle on february, when my postpartum six weeks ended I started exercise and after month I was back in form.

And I started packing. It was time for us to go home

After my birth giving I didn't talked with Jungkook. We have a break as we dealed. I was thinking about him every day and when date of our departure was coming I started to be scared

Is he waiting for me? Did he found anyone else? Does someone else touch him? Does he touch someone else, like he was touching me? Does he moan someone elses name?

This thoughts were killing me, but my mind was full of them.

I was standing at window with Saem in my arms. Our luggages were packed, tomorrow we will leave.

Saem was three months old, he started to smile when we were talking to him. And it made me happy. He has Jungkook's features, his eyes and nose. I practically gave birth to Jungkook's mini copy

Suddenly some message beeped on my phone and I looked at it.

I was staring at my phone and my eyes filled with tears

Someone sent me Jungkook's photos from some bar, he was drunk, and he was hugging some woman.

It wasn't first photo like that. Someone obviously was enjoying my suffer.

I closed it and smiled at Saem, who was looking at me

I hope he will accept us, my baby. Or else I don't know what we will do

Saem mumbled something and smiled at me

Yeah, we have each other, right? That's the most important

I sighed and gave him in his crib. My mom was babysitting today. I musted to visit company where I was as trainee. They prepared a little party for me, so I left there with Taehyung and Yoongi to say my good bye

I was surpriced when I saw Jian and Eun-ji there

They both were smiling at me, but I decided to ignore them.

I was about to leave when Jian came to me

So, Park you are coming back, huh?

I gues so.

And what you will do without Jungkook, when he is in his old self? Fucking all around. Eun-ji added

I turned around and left, without any word.

Yoongi heard them and ran after me

Jimin

Is it true, Yoongi?

I don't know. I heard here today, that he is partying, but he never brought anyone at home. So I really don't know.

I nodded, said my goodbye and left.

Next day we left in Korea, but my mood was bad. I was so scared

We landed in afternoon. Dad and Taemin were waiting for us on airport and we left in Taemin's apartment.

He and dad prepared everything for me and Saem. I was so grateful

Saem cried a lot on plane, so he was tired and was sleeping now.

I took a shower and changed. I wanted to see Jungkook so much, but I was so scared.

Be brave I told to myself and called him

Yes?

Hi

Jimin?

Yes

Hm, you're back?

Yes. I'm

Nice. Your old room in my house is free, if you are interesed

Froze ran over my body from his voice. I gulped and tried to calm down

Jungkook. I...I... I came back. I said and couldn't hold my tears

Yeah, I heard. Your appointment's set for 9:00 a.m. Be on time, I'm on a tight schedule. Well see you tomorrow, bye

He said and hunged up

I called to Jin. But he was on trip with Namjoon and didn't know anything.

He told me, that he talked with Jungkook three days ago and everything was all right.

Hoseok was aslo confused, but he was in Seoul so we dealed a meeting.

I was about to take Saem with me, but he was still tired, so I fed him and left to meet Hoseok

I cried when I saw him. We were hugging each other. We talked almost two hours.

Then I showed him the photos of Jungkook and he was confused

That's wierd, Jimin. He was a lot last few days in bar, but he always left with me.

Something happened. I can feel it. I said and tears formed in my eyes

It will be good, Jimin. You belong together

Hoseok I said with beating heart. I lied to him

What? About what, Jimin? You had a lover in LA?

No, I said and sighed then I took out my phone and showed him my photogallery

Jimin! He breathed out and grabbed his mouth

You, you... you have a child?

Yes

How, when.. I don't understand

I didn't have an abortion, I lied. It's my and Jungkook's son

Geez, Jimin! Hoseok were staring at me. I can see it, he looks like Jungkook.

Jimin, he whispered and came to me to hug me

I'm so happy. And Tae and Yoongi knew it?

Yes

I'll kill them and wait when Jin will know, he will skin them alive.

I want to see him alive. May I

Of course. Is already time to go and feed him, so you can accompany me

Yes, he yelled. So we paid and left.

I fed Saem and then I gave him to Hoseok. He was smiling at him, crying.

Then he took some photos and sent them to Tae and Yoongi

„You fucked up, not to tell me, now I'll do him to love me the most" bye suckers, uncle Hobi

When Hobi left I lay in bed and started to be nervous. Tomorrow is my apointment in BHC. And I will see Jungkook

And the idea was suddenly terified me. I knew that something happened. I felt that he forget me, he moved on.

But what I will do now? It was my only reason to stay sane. That we will be together again