wrong direction

chapter 3

LIAMS POV

j ~ "hello , today we are here with some very good friends of mine, the one and only, one direction"

the crowd started screaming, i mean i love our fans but they can be alot to handle sometimes

j ~ "how are you boys?"

" yeah we're good" we all said except from niall

niall just stared at the floor, he looked like he was lost in thoughts

j ~ "okay great, so i got a game for us to play, you've probaly heard of it 'never have i ever' so basically someone says something and you say you either have or you haven't ever done that

h ~ "okay"

we all nodded our heads

j ~ "so just pass these down" james said as he gave us paddles to pass down

j ~ "okay has everyone got one?"

"yeah" we all said

NIALLS POV

j ~ "okay so the first question is never have i ever used one of my band mates toothbrushes without them knowing'

niall = i have
louis = i have
liam = i haven't
harry = i haven't
zayn = i have

liam and harry looked at me with a confused and shocked look

h ~ "yous better not have used mine"

li~ "niall who's have you used?"

n ~ "i can't remember i think harry's"

harry pulled a shocked face

h ~ "what!?" harry said jokingly

j ~ " okay next question, never have i ever have a secret your other band mates don't know about"

'fuck, well so i tell the truth or lie cause they don't know about my cutting or eating disorder or my mental health'

niall = i have
louis = i haven't
liam = i haven't
harry = i haven't
zayn = i haven't

i put my paddle up as 'i have' and i looked round at the other boys, they all had their paddles at i haven't and all the boys were staring at me, i changed it to i haven't but it was too late, the boys already saw

lo ~ "nuh uh uh, dont even think about changing it back"

z ~ "what is it then niall" zayn said jokingly

i went red, i wasn't about to let me biggest secret go out into the world on live TV

n ~ "well that's not part of the question" i said smartly

h ~ "true"

j ~ "okay next question"

phew that was so close, they nearly found out i shouldn't of even told the truth, why did i even think about telling the truth

we continued the rest of the interview and went home after. we got home and all sat on the couch

ZAYNS POV

we got back and i thought of an idea

z ~ "why don't we have a movie night?"

h ~ "that's actually a good idea"

lo ~ "what movie then?"

z ~ "uhhh i don't mind"

li ~ "how about 'the wonder' i've heard people talk about it and that it's a good movie?"

z ~ "sure, we might as well try it"

we put on the movie and started to watch it when i realised it was a really depressing movie about a girl who starves herself

NIALLS POV

well great this is just the perfect movie, a movie that i can relate to really well and not it a good way either

li ~ "i didn't think this was a depressing movie"

this movie made me want to stave my self more and crouch over the toilet and puke and puke all day till i was actually skinny. i pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged my legs. but then i thought i would look way to suspicious so i put my legs back down and just fiddled with my fingers in my lap

h ~ "guys this movies making me hungry, can we order some food?"

lo ~ "yeah same and sure"

li ~ "what restaurant?"

z ~ "dominos?"

"sure" everyone said except niall

li ~ "niall what about you, dominos?"

n ~ "uhh i'm not really hungry"

lo ~ "niall you haven't eaten all day, and i don't remember you eating all yesterday?"

n ~ "uhhh i have been eating i just don't think you've seen me eat"

lo ~ "okay just tell us if there's something wrong nialler okay?"

n ~ "okay"

li ~ "actually niall now that we're on this subject and we're not live, what was the secret that we don't know about?"

n ~ "uhhhhh.. i can't say"

it was silent in the room till the silence was interrupted by my stomach growling as loud as it possibly could. great this was just the perfect moment for my stomach to growl, right when i told louis i wasn't hungry

lo ~ "you're obviously hungry niall?"

n ~ "i'm not"

lo ~ "niall please, what's been going on with you lately, you've been changing in the bathroom, not been eating, and hiding secrets from us, remember what we said, we could all trust eachother and tell eachother secrets"

n ~ "nothings been going on! just fuck off"

i said before stomping up the stairs and slamming my door