Life Is Not A Fairytale (ON HOLD)

Chapter Twelve

A.N Sorry! This chapter is EXTREMELY short but I just really felt like updating!

Chapter Twelve

When everything you ever cared about suddenly gets crushed or hurt, you get protective like hell! You will do everything to find the source of the pain and beat the shit out of it.

In my case, I couldn't.
Well, I could.
But i'm an introverted person with great anxiety and I could already start sweating if I talked to a random stranger who would asked me the way to the nearest coffee shop.

I knew the source of Anne's pain, it was those devious classmates and other students picking on her differences. It was her aunt and mother, added to the voices in her head.
The world is cruel and mean, living in it is hell.
And if there was a God up there, they wouldn't be doing that great of a job to keep the world safe.

I remember saying I had turned to be Christian. But right at this moment I am questioning my believes and every single thing happening on this horrible planet.

It was Saturday morning and I had made my way to Cambridge to visit the only person who could make me happy at this very moment

I got told that she was moved to another room due to not enough space for the patients coming in. She was put in a room shared with two other patients. Her new room number was 52 which was closer to the beginning of the hall.

I knocked on the door to announce my entrance. As I opened the door to reveal myself I was met by one pair of eyes. It was a tall boy, around 19 or 20. He just apologized for startling me as he let me into the room.

"Hey Anne" I smiled as I walked to her bed. She looked pretty tired but her smile was more realistic than the last time I was here. "How have you been?" I noticed the boy had took place next to Anne's bed. Then I realized, it's Justin! I felt so awkward and weird. I didn't even say anything not even a small 'hi'.

"Better, not perfect. But better." She chuckled.
I could tell she was pretty nervous around Justin but who wasn't dying of nerve around their crush?
"Oh yeah. Derrice, this is Justin." She glanced at him for a brief moment before turning back to me. "And this is Derrice." She smiled.

"Nice to meet you." He said in a low voice as I nodded and mumbled a small "you too."
I was nervous and felt so stupid for even saying that! 'You too'? Who says that?

"I really want you to meet Daisey! She's amazing and so kind all the time." She said very much excited. I was happy that she found someone to talk to and hang out with in this place. It must be hard, especially if you need to go through it all alone.

"How have you been?" She asked me to break the silence. I should've asked that to her! I should be the one worried about a friend. Why am I like this?

"Good, good. Just finished my assignment and i'm seeing you again. So it's all good!" I smiled with a small chuckle after my answer.

"That's great to hear. I have been feeling pretty good too actually. It's not that I finish all my meals but i'm getting there!" She smiled making the guilt grow bigger inside me.
I want to fall into a hole right now, I have been in this room for less than three minutes and I'm fucking up every movement I'm making.

"You know, every time you finish a meal you'll get a hug." Justin smiled making Anne turn to him. "And when you don't.. You'll get one anyway since you'v been so strong." He added making me feel speechless. Why? Why is he so damn good in all of this and i'm a total fuck up! I can understand why Anne would rather hangout with him than with me. He's a way better person than I am. In every single- STOP IT DERRICE!

Focus on your friend not you.

"I would love to meet Daisy, she sounds like a perfect friend." I smiled at her as she nodded back "she is!" She exclaimed happy.

Ow.

"And you actually can, we kind of shuffled up the assigned rooms and made sure that we would be sharing the same. Of course they know, but they don't know that we know. So they just kept it that way since they probably find it better for the both of us.. Right now she is.." She explained her room assigning as I drifted off a little bit, still hearing what she was saying but not really taking in her words.

I'm losing her, she's totally forgetting all about me. Everything we have done and every moment we ever shared. She's caring more about Justin, Daisey, I bet she would even be with Bailey right now rather than me. She probably called her first but she couldn't make it or something. She would replace me for anyone easily.
Talking about Bailey, she really has been on my mind lately, has been ignoring me. Has been giving me glares. Like she blames me for what happened. I don't get it anymore.

"Anyways, she should be back soon and you two could meet! Justin already saw her before she left. I think you two would get along real well." My mind came back to reality as I randomly started nodding and smiling at her words, which I understood only for the half.

"I bet she'd get along with Johnnie just as well." Justin said in a cheeky way making Anne laugh at his joke.

"Who?" I questioned not knowing who this guy is.

"Ohw, I didn't tell you. This guy Johnnie is in Justin and Tommy's classes. He's amazing and really funny, you should meet him." She chuckled.

Yeah.. I should.

"Ohw, someone has a crush" Justin teased her as he leaned in whilst making a funny face at her. She giggled at his actions as she turned to me to avoid eye contact with him. I gave her a reassuring smile as I let out a small sigh of annoyance, and I'm not sure why.