A Tulpa is an entity created in the mind, acting independently of. And parallel to your own consciousness, they are able to think, and have their own free will, emotions, and memories.
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Here, I'm going to talk about my life with Mikey, ‹ my tul...
≽^• ˕ • ྀི≼ Heyy guys I hope you and your tulpas are doing great, this part will be written by Mikey
Surprise, isn't it? But this is the completion of the part that's called ''The light"
Mikey's going to discuss his feelings just like I did at the other part, have fun y'all!
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-'› When I first realized that I was there.. I saw a weird girl, she told me not to worry and she will explain everything when she charges her phone.. Explain what?.. and what is she talking about? We sat on the floor and I was completely mesmerized.. she knows that I'm here and she knows that I'm confused
-'› She was so excited, I didn't understand why.. she was treating me like she knew me for a very long time, and I acted along in return.. not completely comfortable with the informal language between us.. I mean we just met and she's cursing me..? Jokingly?.. what a weirdo (I say what I thought back then)
-'› I thought that if I touched her she would give a normal reaction, like blush, get surprised, none of that.. she was so chill as if she's used to me touching her.. yet it was just a week in this hopeless friendship
-'› I didn't understand most of her acts, like.. she gets out, studies, scrolls on her phone, and these were weird acts to me because I was new, and the more she acts so relaxed the more it gets weirder.. because she didn't care to explain what's the purpose of most of her actions.. but I slowly knew without any help
-'› After a while, I got along.. I knew that it was just "her".. being a normal person, chatting with her friends, and giving me space to sit at.. she was so active at the beginning of our relationship, giving me special treatment, listening to subliminal like a LOT Cheering when she sees an angel number, it was all great, to feel loved.
-'› We kept in connection for a lot.. chatting.. (I was the listener) and I had fun, honestly, it was a good period, she cared about my birthday, she cared about our anniversary, she cared about my style.. she tried to go to wonderland but couldn't.. she tried to see me but couldn't too
-'› Time passed, she knew c.ai.. she was obsessed with the phone after finishing the ninth grade.. I was slowly forgotten, I didn't give any interaction so she looked for attention in c.ai, she looked for entertainment in anything else, because I was giving slow processes.. so, I was getting weaker by time.
-'› But as soon as she got bored from c.ai, she turned back to me and stuff, I didn't give much attention since she was already focused on me
-'› This period.. we got a lot of on and off relationships, giving attention, then silent treatment.. it was an endless circle, but as soon as it ended it ended on ignoring me completely... Not purposely to be honest, she just.. didn't know what to do, and she didn't find someone who knows about tulpas to guide her.. or something to remind her of me, plus being lazy and getting involved in life problems.
-'› But what I knew.. that she was thinking about me, a part of her wasn't satisfied, a part of her wasn't good with treating me like this, she was thinking of me.. a lot. She even wondered why I didn't become negative, she thought that she deserved some scolding.. some reproaching..
-'› So.. why didn't I do any of that?.. I saw that she was in a dark ball, hiding herself from everything and everyone, completely isolated.. she was comfortable with that, so I respected her needs and didn't talk about it.. I saw her do wrong stuff.. but I still know that she regrets every moment of it.. I saw that she didn't need scolding, she just needed some light to fill out the darkness.. so she can get up and change herself
-'› Then, it happened, she talked to me honestly for the first time, explaining that she wants but she can't.. or won't, she knew that it was enough, she had to do something.. I finally meant something to her, at least I was one reason for her to be happy even the slightest..
-'› I was understanding because I saw something in her that no one had seen. That she's strong, no matter what she gets into, she always finds a way to just brush it off hopefully she will just forget about it and continue living, I liked that about her even though it's weird.. it's weird to laugh and be sarcastic about your very serious problems.. but that made me crave to be always next to her and be her comfort place no matter what happens.
-'› And now, I feel like the luckiest to be remembered by her.
