February 20th 1987
This was such bullshit! Was he trying to rub this bitch in my face? God, I just wanted to punch him in his face! how dare he do this to me! The person who thought knew everything about him! God I'm so mad and frustrated, this was possibly the worse betrayal I had ever experienced.
I wanted to tell him exactly what I thought and understand why he would do this to me, but I couldn't. I couldn't get him alone when him and Vivienne were all over each other, I felt like I was losing control. I needed to know why he did this to me, and make him realise I can't be treated like this.
I just needed to understand why.
And here he was, in front of me, Vivienne by his side - of course.
He took notice of me staring, trying to build the courage to walk over, and he swiftly he leaned in and kissed her. With each movement of his mouth on hers- he stared at me I could sense the smirk on his face, his stupid, stupid face!
And in that moment I finally realised it was over- he was no longer mine.
Soon enough she pulled away from the passionate kiss, giggling foolishly, before speaking to him "look I have to go to class, but hey, this isn't over" she smirked to him giving him another kiss before leaving stood alone at his locker, not noticing me at all.
This was my time, I knew I had to ask him why?
I took a deep breath and gathered the courage to slowly approached him. "River-" I spoke quickly making him turn to face me, he had an unreadable expression on his face.
"River, why are you doing this- please just tell me why you're doing this to me" I spoke desperately trying to search for an answer.
He stared at me not saying a word, this made my heart jump out my chest. I didn't know what to say, I had just made myself look like such a fool.
Finally he broke the silence between us, "because I found someone better" his words hit me like a blow. I was in complete shock. I couldn't believe he would just throw everything we had away, dispose of me like trash!
"You found someone better? The person who has been trying to break us up since I can remember? What is going on with you river!" My voice got a little louder. "Look, I'm done trying, I'm done with you" I spoke firmly, my voice cracking "I don't know why you want this, but I'm done." I turned away and left, my heart heavy with sadness and confusion- none of my questions had been answered, all I got from the conversation was hurt.
This was something i definitely hadn't expected, but maybe it was something I needed.
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The first period was history, and it was lonely; generally, I had someone to talk to, and that someone was river. But now, I'm sat alone in class with no one to talk too.
"Hey stranger" a familiar voice spoke pulling me out of my pity party, I quickly turned around and discovered who the voice came from.
I groaned slightly as I realised that the person talking was Eric. I hadn't noticed much of him since the time he had insulted me at my locker.
He quickly grabbed a next to me "not gonna talk huh? Well this is gonna be a long lesson" he grumbled the last part.
"Well what exactly do you want me to say?" I replied.
"Whatever you want Kim! Just talk to me, argue with me! Jesus you could even hit me but atleast I can same some sort of communication with you! He spoke his tone unreadable. I sighed; maybe it could be nice to talk to Eric again?
For the entire period, Eric and I talked, laughed and caught up; It was nice speaking to an old 'friend' once again.
Maybe I didn't need river after all?
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AC: very short chapter but I have been away and very ill right now! Either way I hope you guys enjoyed.
Much love - xoxox
