𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚋𝚘𝚍𝚢 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍 📸

Tension...

A/N sorry haven't posted in a few weeks despite my regular post promise, I've had to deal with some personal shit but im back now💀.
Also apologies but there's a part of this that's like ivys work and I read it back and it's really cringy but oh welllll
Anyways, this is a long chapter and we do get so see a different side to Ivy in this chapter...

⚠️ TW! mentions of eating disorders and arguing, self sabotage and negative thoughts, don't read if anything will trigger you <3 ⚠️

—IVYS POV—
(Aged 19, yesterday lunch)

While me and Luca are talking over lunch, I looked over and noticed that Astra hasn't touched any of her food which is strange because whenever looked over at her earlier it seemed as if she was about to take a bite? 'Is she okay?' I start to wonder. "Are you not going to have lunch?" I ask in hopes of getting her to eat something, "nah not hungry I have it later, how were your guys lessons?" She replies obviously trying to divert the conversation making me even more suspicious. She doesn't seem to want anything but she looks deathly pail, 'I'm not letting this go that easily.' Unknowingly I switch my tone "please, eat. You look pale it will do you some good" I plead, to which she replies with "fine." and a piercing death glare. 'Success!' Astra doesn't seem happy with the arrangement, she has a disgusted expression on her face as she slowly lifts up the sandwich she packed.

Her hands start to violently shake as she bites softly into the sandwich, after taking the bite she pulls her hand away, I watched as her face Slightly paled as her face shifted to one of... panic? 'What the hell is going on?' I tried to brush off my concern for the girl sat in-front of me, but instead of minimizing the thoughts they turned into something I couldn't ignore as I watched Astra run out the room with her half eaten sandwich in hand. 'What the hell?' I began to think as I start to stand up, but as I do I feel a hand grip my wrist. Upon further inspection I realized it's Luca, 'I haven't got time for this... I need to make sure Astras okay.' I think as my chest begins to heave at the thought of her not being alright, "Luca. Let go I need to see if she's okay" I tell him in a stern tone. "ivy it's probably nothing don't work yourself up about it." He tries to convince me and calm me down. "O- okay, your probably right" I stutter in agreement. I slowly sit down still in a trance of partial panic. Luca starts talking to try divert my thoughts but they were just to loud, drowning out whatever he had to say.

A while later I look down and check my watch, '30 minutes... she's been gone for 30 minutes.' Ironically as I look back up I'm greeted by the ghost of a girl called Astra walking over with a smile. 'She ditched us for 30 fucking minutes and she's happy about it?' I think with my face starting to heat up. "Where the fuck have you been?!" I snap, killing her once cheerful mood. "Just went to the bathroom-" she began but I swiftly cut her off by almost shout "for 30 fucking minutes?! Bullshit." Luca try's stepping in, helping Astra with her lies. She starts waffling about how she exploring the campus or some shit like that, but I wasn't buying any of it. Trying to avoid an argument I just mumbled so "alright's" under my breath and went silent. The rest of lunch I held a grudge, normally I'm the person to carry the conversation but instead I simply stared at the floor until the bell went. Luckily for me I have writing 101, for me writing has always been a way to get my feeling out, a chance to put thoughts on paper, ironically I'm really pissed off at my best friend right now so I need to let some shit out.

Making my way to my class I catch sight of myself in the window besides me, unlike normal I realize ever since the think with Astra I have had a angry expression displayed across my face, 'fuck, supposed to be the "sunshine character" not this.' I think while slipping my smiley mask back in place. A few minutes later I arrive at the lecture hall, the class is surprisingly small with only about 15 people so I just find a seat in the back corner. After everyone settled in and quieted down the professor started talking "welcome everyone to writing 101, my names mr spring and I will be your teacher for the next few years! It's only our first lesson so I would like you to create a monologue for a character of your choice, when you finish just read or study for a bit. sound good?" He explained to the class to and everyone agreed in unison.