Love At The First Sight (Zayn Malik Fan Fiction)

My Grief on Liam

Hi guys, how are you? I hope you are doing well.

I have been a Directioners since 2010. I have never felt this way before, this news is shocking to me. I'm still wondering if it's true that Liam has passed away. I keep asking myself, why did this happen? I know it's fate, but I don't know... it hurts so much.

I'm sorry, Liam. You gave so many signs that you needed help. I didn't realize it because you seemed fine. Liam... I'm sorry if we pressured you to keep us updated about the boys. I'm sorry if we were ever disappointed in you. I NEVER justified Liam's actions. Of course, I regret them deeply. But I know you're a good person. You always helped us, smiled, and engaged with your fans. But we never focused on your sadness. I'm sorry, Liam...

I cried all day, everyday. It's really hard to hold back my tears while I'm working or doing other activities. I always think about Liam, and I constantly check my social media for the latest updates. But life must go on. It doesn't feel the same anymore when I read fanfiction about One Direction on Wattpad or listen to their songs. The lyrics feel different and painful. I never imagined this would happen. I haven't even met them in my life. What am I supposed to do now?

I don't know if I can continue this fan fiction anymore. I'm not strong enough. Everything feels like a nightmare. It seems like this is the end of the fan fiction. I can't even listen to their songs.

Thank you to those who have always supported this story. I'm sorry if I've made any mistakes and if the updates have been very slow. I don't know what else to say. Please..you guys stay strong too. Now, let's pay more attention to Louis, Zayn, Niall, and Harry. It feels very strange for me to mention their names just the four of them. I don't want this to happen again. It's very painful. We'll get through this, or maybe we never heal.

I don't care if anyone thinks I'm overreacting. You don't understand this. Let us mourn. We're not harming anyone.

Please, rest peacefully, Liam. I'm not sure about writing this, but I have to. Slowly, I will let you go. I'll try my best. Fly high..Thank you for everything, Liam. I will always love you and pray for you. Thank you, Liam. Directioners will always love you, your family, and your sweet son, Bear. Always. The biggest fandom in the world.

Payno...we miss you today, tomorrow, forever.

Forever 5/5

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