Strings of Fate

Chapter 28: "Comfort me..."

Y/n's POV:

I didn't notice falling asleep yesterday. Not at all. But it was exactly like the days before: us seeing the stars at night and I falling asleep in his arms. I never remember something of it, except the warmth inside his arms maybe, however, I'm not sure if it's not just my mind always tricking me.

That's the first things I thought of while waking up in my room, the clothes I had on yesterday still on, my body obviously tucked in the blankets. My shoes were off my feet just like my vest. Instead, his vest was around me, like if I was wearing this slight oversized coat he owns.

The next I could think of what today's date. Or more like, a deathday if I was honest. Victoria's deathday.

I... I don't know what to say.

Is it normal to feel guilty even after so long?

I got up reluctantly, not caring to change myself just yet. I followed the smell until the kitchen, where our deer foodie was, again, cooking what seemed like... Meat. The meat we could all tell where he got that from: Rosie's Emporium.

-Good morning my dear!

A short shriek of surprise could be heard from me as my body froze for a split second.

I didn't think he'd notice me!

-Well, what would my darling like: some coffee, breakfast?

-Just coffee, with cream and sugar please. I'm not that hungry. Besides, I do not usually eat meat from the Emporium at that hour. Or most of the time, to be more specific.

-Mmm.

Why did he just sounded like a mosquito?

Anyways, he came back to the table he basically made me sat near with 2 coffee mugs and his own plate, which was mostly... Uncooked. The meat was was cooked rare, if not raw and the blood was coming out of the meat like a blood.

I think I lost my appetite.

-What?

-Just surprised my dear, just surprised you're not, considering how much you had in here. Blood, livers, thighs meat, I think you also had a few lungs in all of that my dear!

-Rosie's giving me some of that. I gave myself some of those too. I didn't remember I kept some lungs, but I won't complain if you don't.

-It did made this breakfast my dear.

A pause was made, I looked up to a particular item of hers I left there and, apparently, could bring in Hell during my death.

Her death was my whole fault, no doubts about this...

Why can't I do a thing right?

Probably why we let me with marks of it. Because that's the reason I'm here. Because I'm a terrible person. Because that's my all and fucking fault she died.

Well, the first reason I'm here at least.

-You seem lost in this pretty little mind of yours, darling. What's the matter? Lost a few inches during your sleep~?

-First: no, not for that Al. Second: how does that make any sense and why would I lose inches during my sleep?

-None, my darling, except for the fact you look so much shorter in my vest!

-Put some inches inside me then.

He didn't say anything back, just stared at my (surely, but I didn't care) disheveled bed-looking appearance.

Why the fuck did I said that...

-More seriously, it's about Vic. Well, Victoria. It's her deathday today.

Again, he didn't answer, not a word left his pale lips nor did he made a move for anything. He just looked behind me like someone or a ghost was there. It also felt like his food was more important than the meaning of this day for me.

-Sooooo... This is awfully silent here, I'm sure we have a cat somewhere holding you both's tongues. Hahaha!

The surprise I got to their voice was enough to make me choke on my coffee. And ruin someone's, aka Alastor's, clothes.

-Dad, I didn't know you were here!

-Not just me, mon ange...

Behind the door, in the hallway, was everyone I cared for, every person that seemed to care for me. Rosie, my very first friend here. Amber, the one who made me support that man. Alexander, my silly model designer. Arabelle, the sheep in wolf's clothing. And Ghost, appearing to my side and hugging me, the one that made me felt like a big sister or a mother towards.

-Alastor knew you didn't take Victoria's death well. That you seemed to blame yourself a lot for it. And so, he decided to change that and not let you live this alone, but with people who wants to help you through it, told me Amber.

-You always were here for us, Y/n. Let us be here for you, to comfort you throughout this all, continued Rosie.

I didn't know what to say. I felt like crying, but not like I was in pain, sorrowful...

Like they lifted a weight from me.

-You did all of that for me, Alastor... But why?

I was at a lost for words.

-Why, you are precious to me, my darling. I noticed on your calendar, I knew you felt horrible and how much you loved your sister. I am no good at comfort, so I asked for help from them.

He got up, let his food aside as he walked to me and crounched, Ghost letting go of me to stay at my right.

Funny enough, he seemed to glance at Alastor in a very adorable way to me.

-I love you, mon amour, and I'll do anything if it means I can have you by my side. You were their light of hope when they felt weak, you are my light and rainbow to my thunderclouds and rain. You pierced through it and saw me for who I am, and that's why I will not stop loving you, Y/n.

I cried. When I heard him, all I could do was cry. All the pain I put myself through for her death, all of it... It was time to let a part of it go.

-Yeah. Please guys. Comfort me...