please come back (caitvi)

the problem of a letter.

okay so don't hate me yall, but i might have lied to you again😔 ugh i can not be trusted.

what i mean by that is this is more going in the direction of my imagination, and purely? idc🤭 love my babies to much. and i've milked the leaks so much (the good parts anyway)

anyways i wont keep you long, lets get into what vi is thinking 😏

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Caitlyn hesitantly opened the letter, afraid of what it may contain she takes a breath.

"Cait,
I once told myself that we aren't right for each other. And I really wanted to believe that, but I simply can not.

I've expressed that i'm not great with the feelings thing. But what I do know, is that i have to try and at least tell you something.

Sitting here, my mind should be more worried about nearly being blown to bits, but strangely the only thing that keeps crossing my mind is you. I know there's a million reasons that we shouldn't have anything together. Yet every moment i've truly felt myself, is with you.

I know i shouldn't be saying this, but to be completely fuckin' honest, I think i'm addicted to you. And I can't express enough how much that terrifies me. I don't want to ruin you, like i do everything else.

The only good part about this is, I can't have you. So that makes it easier.

Actually, screw that. I will always want you, caitlyn.

So if I have to wait for better circumstances, okay.

I'm done running.

Oh and cait?

I'm sure your girlfriend is great.. but you know that she will never make you feel the way i do. You won't look at her the same way you look at me. Like you can't stand being apart from me, that you need me.

So be with her, but don't forget i'm the one who you want to be with. Need to be with. Whatever that is.

                              -Vi"

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Caitlyn closed the paper wiping her eyes.

She knew vi was right. But to actually hear her saying she wants her?

Fuck

She sat there pondering for what felt like hours.

Words repeating in her head

'i'm done running.'

'she will never make you feel the way i do'

'i think i'm addicted to you'

Caitlyn sat there and thought, "what the hell am i gonna do now"

On the one hand she wants to tell maddie, but doesn't even know how or what to say.

On the other, she wants vi. All of her.

When they kissed, it felt like time had stopped. That she could breathe again.

And then there's jinx.

How was she supposed to deal with that?

She walked into her bedroom and out the letter in the drawer of her bedside table locking it with the other one.