||him|| Ciel Phantomhive x Reader

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* I decided that now instead of using (Y/N), I'm gonna use ____.*

Recap

____ finally told Ciel that she's pregnant only to find out that he has another girlfriend.

~‡____'s POV‡~

Its been an hour since he left.

I haven't moved from my position of the fetal position on my bed.

I've cried so much that I feel dehydrated. And its only 11:30.

I don't want to move but I really need some water.

I push myself up from the damp bedsheets and into the kitchen. Weird how in less than five minutes my world crumbled.

The bacon Ciel attempted to cook is still on the counter. I look at it and can't help but grimace. Its like what you see in those dumb romantic movies. Everything here reminds me of him. The Earl Grey, the laundry, the sofa...

Of course the next step in the movies is the couple that split realize that they're soul mates and get back together.

I won't let that happen. Even if he's interested, I won't let him. He would always go out for 'business.' Was he really only seeing her? That's probably where he is now..

She can have him! I don't need him. This is my baby. I suppose its his too.. But I'm the one carrying it. Not him. He probably doesn't want it either. He's probably happy to be rid of me so he can live happily ever after with his 'Lizzie.'

I filled a glass with some water and downed it quickly. I did it again and leant back on the counter. Face it ____, you're fucked.

Do I even want this baby..?
It'll have a shit upbringing if its brought up by me... I'm a mess. Not to mention a slut. A randomer turned up at my door and we were screaming each others name after two days. What is my life?

Bzzzz Bzzzz!

My phone buzzed from the living room. Then again. And again. I trudged into the living room and picked up my iPhone from the coffee table.

15 Missed Calls: Leah, Megan, Ciel.

47 Messages: Leah, Megan, Ciel.

Suddenly my phone vibrated and (ringtone song) rang through my ears. I looked at the screen.

Megan

Is Calling.

Accept? Decline?

I didn't hesitate for a second before tapping 'Accept.'

"____! Are you OK?! You weren't answering your phone." Her voice sounded worriedly through the speaker.

"I---" My voice was way too hoarse to reply. I took another sip of water and cleared my throat before replying.

"Megan..." I whined pitifully. I'd be crying but there's not enough moisture in my body to do that.

"____?" She asked still worried.

"Please come over." I said. "And bring Ice cream."

Ten Minutes Later

I heard a knock on the door followed by a familiar voice calling me. I trudged to the door and pulled it open.

"____? Are you OK? You look like shit have you been crying?" She quizzed. I ignored the question, taking the tub of Häagen Dazs from her hands.

I walked into the apartment with her following and got two spoons from the kitchen. I sat at the island and peeled open the tub of cookies and crème.

"____?" Megan asked as I shoved a spoon of ice cream in my mouth. I hummed a response.

"Where's Ciel..?" She asked. I dropped my spoon. Goddamit. I hung my head as tears seeped from my eyes. I had been rehydrating for the past 15 minutes and now I was wasting it.

Bitter sobs escaped my lips and I couldn't stop them.

"He left." I managed between sobs. I heard Megan gasp before I felt her arms around me, dragging me to the floor. We were leant against my cupboard, me sobbing as she stroked my hair and shushed me.

"What happened?" She asked as my sobs died down.

"I was gonna tell him about the baby last night but we ended up fucking." I said whining. I saw her give the look. "Don't ask. I told him this morning and he told me he has a girlfriend so I told him to leave."

"Dickhead." She said. I nodded.

"Can you stay here tonight?" I asked. She nodded.

Mleh. So bad. But don't OK. I've been awake since 4Am. Its 7 now...
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-Faydahe.