It's hard to love you (olic) (boyxboy)

Chapter 10

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So umm im starting off with the way Oli's reaction to Tom telling Oli Josh is his boyfriend... so yep, so this is like the still 1 week before.

1 week ago (if you didn't read the little sentence up there)

Of fucking course Josh is his boyfriend. I used to love him, why would be go and fucking turn around to go to my brother. Josh had never met Tom, but Josh knew he was my fucking brother. I never told my family about Josh. I should've. I felt my anger rising, so I tried falling asleep. It worked.

1 week later (when Vic wakes up)

*Oli's dream*
"I can never be with just a dick like you Oli, I never even liked you, I just felt bad and I didn't want to reject your pathetic ass, good thing I had a fucking iscuse to dump you, you dumb fuck." Vic said. Tears welled up in my eyes. I knew not to fall in love again. "Leave me and my brother alone you stupid bitch," Mike had said. "You stupid cunt, no one can stand being with you for a long time, i just pretend i did, never fucking talk to me again." Jordan said, walking away. I had just lost my boyfriend, best friend, and my friend Mike. Could things get worse? I had spoke too soon. I had gotten a call from my dad, Ian.

"Hello?" I asked into the phone.

"Dont fucking bother coming home for the holidays you gay bitch," he said hanging up. My dad didn't know I was gay, unless Tom, Josh, or my mom said something. Everything I loved I lost. I'm such a fuck up.

*End of Oli's dream*

I woke up sweating, it was about 1 A.M. I couldn't breathe. I looked over to Vic, and he was awake, turned toward me, my heart melted, and my anger dissappeared. Finally hes awake. "Vic, oh my god. Finally your awake." I said. He mumbled something but I didnt hear what he said. "Oh baby don't speak if you dont want to," I said, getting up from where I was asleep, walking over to him. He asked how long he was asleep so I told him, he asked me a couple of questions and I had gotten pretty tired, the past 2 weeks I only got about 40 to 50 hours of sleep, so i told him i love him and I'm gonna try to sleep. He agreee and fell asleep. I had totally forgot to call Mike, so when Vic looked dead asleep I left the room and I called Mike. It rang once or twice, and then someone picked up.

"Any news?" He asked.

"He woke up," was all I said.

"I'm on my way," he said. I had said okay and then we said our goodbyes and he hung up. I went back into the room only to see Vic awake switch through the channels. "I thought you had left," he said with a sad tone. "No I had to call Mike to tell him you woke up," I said. He just said oh, and I pressed the button thing to call the nurse. Even though she checked up on Vic every 4 hours, right before Vic woke up she had came and it's only been an hour or two. When the nurse came in she was relieved to see Vic awake. She checked Vic's blood pressure, stuff like that. When the doctor left Mike and Tony came in the room. Mike was crying and Tony had a happy expression. "How is he?" Tony asked me, whispering. "Good, hows Mike?" I asked, Tony and I had gotten pretty close since I watched over Vic and Tony watched over Mike. "Good, when you called him I was already up, and we left as soon as we can and he started crying, and I asked why and he said he was just so happy." He said, smiling at Mike, who was talking to Vic.

We all hung out for a while. It was 7 in the morning now. Tony and Mikehad fallen asleep on the mini couch, I was on the bed with Vic, obviously being the big spoon. Everyone was sleeping but me, I couldn't for some reason. I remembered the lyrics I wrote for him while he was asleep.

"What doesn't kill you
Makes you wish you were dead
got a hole in my soul growing deeper and deeper
and I cant take one more moment of this silence
the lonliness is haunting me
and the weight of the world is getting harder to hold up

It comes in waves, I close my eyes
hold my breath and let it bury me
im not okay and its not alright,
Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?
Who will fix me now?
dive in when im down?
save me from myself?
dont let me drown
who will make me fight?
drag me out alive?
save me from myself?
dont let me drown."

I sang to him, tears welling up in my eyes, what if I did lose him? I didn't realize a nurse came in, but she did. "Hey, my name is Taylor, but call me Tay, I need you to get up to check some stuff on Mr. Victor here," she said, with that 'aww' look on her face. I got up, blushing and left the room to go to the cafeteria, I was pretty hungry. I went down and realized there was nothing good to eat, so I went to the vending machine. I got myself some smores pop tarts. I ate them and then got some water from the cafeteria, the only thing I liked from the hospital cafeteria. Once I was done I went back to the second floor to Vic's room. I quietly opened the door to see him crying, I looked around the room to see Mike and Tony still sleeping. "Whats wrong baby," I said walking over to him. He looked relieved when he seen me. "I thought you left me, forever," he said, starting to cry again. "I'm sorry baby, I went to go get some food from the cafeteria." I said, cupping his face and wiping his tears. "It's okay," he said, yawning. I crawled back in bed with him, he put him face in my neck and fell asleep, and I did the same.

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"Hey Oli, we're gonna go get something to eat." Tony said waking me up. "Want anything?" He asked. "No thanks," I said, trying to fall back asleep. "Baby wake up," I heard Vic say. I looked at him and he said, "Babe it's 12." "But I don't want to get up," I said, wrapping my arm around his waist. "They said I can leave today," he said, waking me up. "Yay" I chirped. "Someone's excited," Vic said laughing, one of my favorite sounds was his laugh. "Duh, I can finally take my boyfriend on a real date," I said, pecking his cheek. He just blushed. "I love you," I said, cupping his face kissing him. "I love you too," he said, blushing once again. Mike came into the room, with an expression I couldn't read. "Um can Vic and I have a moment to speak... alone," he said, basically telling me to get out. I respected his wished and left the room going to the restroom to brush my teeth.

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I'm sorry I haven't updated, I was going to post this last night but I fell asleep, SORRY I LOVE YOU ALL

Anyways, sorry for the cliff hanger-ish thing///////: