A Sad Beautiful Tragic Love Affair (Niall Horan)

VII. Distance Timing

VII. Distance Timing

IT was a week since I left the hospital. Anna is always on the phone talking to her boyfriend- Zayn... I was jealous, if only I could also talk to Niall. I miss him so much; I miss his voice, his laugh, the way he looks at me, the way he cuddles me, and everything about him. I wish I could go back to the past and correct what I’ve done wrong...

* It was a day before Niall’s birthday. He told that they will have a concert at Madison Square Garden the day after his birthday. I am scared of leaving him, but I don’t have any choice. Paul always reminds me about our deal, well I don’t consider it a deal because it is against my will. When I imagine about of leaving Niall it makes me want to cry. I love him so much and I want him to be safe. Paul was right leaving him was the best way for both of us. I looked at Niall who was peacefully sleeping, he like an angel. My eyes are starting to get heavy. I couldn’t imagine life without him; he’s the reason for waking up each morning. He’s the reason why I smile every day. We promised to each other that no matter what will happen we will never leave each other.

I walked to the bed and touch Niall’s face. Tears are falling into my cheeks, “Hubby I’m so sorry if I will break our promise, I don’t want anything bad will happen to you again. I love you and that’s the reason why I am leavening you, if we are meant for each other... I know God will find its own way to bring us back together again. It’s not easy to bid my goodbye to you personally because I know you will stop me from leaving. Sorry if I can’t say it to you personally because if I did that things will be much harder for the both of us. I don’t want to see you crying because it hurts me more. Seeing you being hurt are killing me, you know that. Well you also broke our promised that keeping secrets right? Well I will forgive you with that and I hoped you’ll forgive me with this... I love you no matter what will happen. You’re the first person who believed that I am capable of loving. You taught me how to love again. Thank you for coming into my life and making me always happy. Thank you for giving me beautiful memories that I can keep forever in my heart... Goodbye is not the appropriate word to use but I hoped to see you soon hubby.” I kissed his forehead and Niall started to move, I immediately wipe my tears

“Hey are you crying?” Niall asked me.

“No I’m not crying” I shook my head and he hugged me tight.

“Well whatever the reason behind your tears you can always tell me wifey...” he kissed my forehead.

“It’s nothing Okay” I flashed my sweetest smile on him, but deep inside of me I am crying in pain...

“Let’s go back to sleep and tomorrow will make ourselves happy okay I love you Wifey I always do,”

“I love you too Hubby” I hoped you can forgive me in doing this to you. I hope you can understand me. I know you will but not for now I guess.

I watched him while he was sleeping. I don’t want to sleep because I know it will be the last time I will watch him sleeping, I want to cherish this moment, this final moment that we were together.

 

IT was Niall’s birthday, he was throwing a party at our apartment, yes Niall and I live in the same apartment. He was too busy organizing it, guests are starting to come. Whenever I see Niall it breaks my heart knowing that this might be the last time I will see his handsome face. If only we are normal people things will surely be easy for the both of us.

“Wifey” Niall hugged me at my back.

“Hmm. Yes hubby?” I said to him, holding back my tears. It was never easy to pretend that you are fully okay when the truth is you’re dying inside.