Words Unspoken

Open Letter For The Guy Who Broke My Heart

I am not sure how to start this, but I'll be listening to my heart --- it will surely speak on behalf of myself. Words that I can't utter infront of you because I know there's nothing it can do --- you will still walk away and never choose to look back and take a glimpse if I am hurting or not.

I didn't want to let you go. I made a promise to myself that I will lock and keep you in my arms. We made a promise to ourselves that we will be each other's home no matter what happen, that after ever struggle, we will still walk to each other.

Do you remember the days that we are so happy, we didn't mind the people around us because what we felt for each other is ecstasy.

Do you still remember the days when you never left my side when the world turns it back to me? Those were the days that I felt your love and care. You gave me assurance that we will be together in every trials we may encounter. Laban mo, laban nating dalawa.

I gave you shelter when you have no home to come to. I gave you warm hugs when all of them are cold to you. I chose you despite your name screaming danger. I gave up everything just to have you. I chose you when no one dared to be with you. You are so distant yet I still push myself to you. I love you dearly even when you forgot how to love yourself. I held your hand when you feel lonely. I locked you in my arms when everyone left you. I lifted you up when you were so down. I still take risk even if I am not sure if you'll catch me when I am on the edge of falling.

Now, you are letting me go. You didn't want me to stay in your life anymore because you found another shelter, another home where you could feel warm everytime the weather is cold. You have found your new love where you can give up everything just to be with that person. You have finally found your new battle, a battle that is willing to take all the risks just to win the fight --- a fight for your new love's heart.

Right in the moment you let me go, you lose the girl who gave you the world even if you have nothing to offer. You lose the girl whom you can be with in every worst and best days of your life. You lose the girl who pick up your every shattered pieces when you are broken. You lose the girl that didn't leave you even when you wish to be alone.

I'd like to say all of this when you left me because I know that there's a bit of pain in your eyes the moment you let me go, but I chose to be silent because it won't matter anymore, you will still walk on the other side of the road where your new love is waiting.

I didn't want to let you go but it will be more painful to hold on because I am the only one fighting for us.

I didn't want to let you go, but you let me.