Words Unspoken

To The Guy Who Is Now Happy While I'm Still Broken

After how many months of separation, I got the chance to see you. You've changed. A lot. You're still the same man I fell for but the thing is, you're more inspired now and I can see that you are truly happy. I am also happy for you but there will always be a part of me that's in pain because I didn't have the chance to gave you that happiness.

While you are happy with her, I am still here stuck in the process of moving on. While you are busy loving her, I am still here longing for you. While you are doing everything to make her happy, I'm here doing everything just to forget you. While you're busy nurturing your life with her, I am here searching for that missing piece of myself - maybe I left it within you because I still love you, because I can't see myself being just your friend. I can't stand seeing you happy while I'm breaking apart.

I guess I'll just love you in silence, because in silence, there's no rejection and in silence, no one owns you but me.

I know it will take more months or maybe years for me to finally move on from you but right now, I will just watch you from afar even if it breaks me. Even if it stings.

Funny how I tell myself to not cry because of you but I always end up crying myself to sleep because of the memories we've built that I will cherish and that you can ignore forever.

I cried because of you once or twice and when I say once or twice, I mean couple of hundred times.

I just wish that you will always be happy even if I'm no longer part of it, because that's what love is - wishing for their happiness even if it brings you tears. I wish that you won't cry anymore, and if ever you'll cry, I hope it means happiness.

I don't wanna be unfair. Just because I'm still devastated doesn't mean I wish for your pain. Just because I'm still on the process of healing the wounds that you've inflicted upon me doesn't mean I would never wish for your happiness.

I'm just broken hearted. Your happiness is still important to me even if it brings me so much pain...