Im Not Worth Your Time

09. What Tore Us Apart

Under the night sky, the LED lights of the train station, the wind blowing around the boys fur as they sit there. Tails collecting himself before beginning to regail Winter with the tail of why he hated Sonic.

"After Cosmo died, I uh... I didn't know how to go on. For a while I actually shut myself in my room, did nothing but cry and throw things. She was the only one who understood me, the only one who made me feel complete and after she sacrificed herself to save the planet. I felt broken, like a piece of me had been ripped away"

"So that's why you didn't make any public appearances all of last year... You were in mourning" Winter says, the wolf had initially been told Tails was not making any public appearances he just didn't know why at the time, now he finally had an answer as to why he wasn't in the public eye for half a year.

Tails nods, confirming that was the reason.

"I spent a lot of time in my room either playing videos games, working on things in the hideout or watching... Um...-"

"Porn" Winter says, practically reading his mind.

Tails nods, scratching his head and looks away from Winter.

"Hey, I'm not gonna judge you, it's okay" Winter says, messaging his hands.

"...I don't deserve you" Tails says, managing to give the wolf a smile.

"And sometimes I feel like I don't deserve you.... But here we are" Winter says, smiling back at him.

He notices a sports drink ad with Sonic as it's spokesperson, Thunderstorm Hydration...

The fox grits his teeth, normally his blood pressure would rise but since Winter was here with him, he was strangely calmer, his blood more a simmer then a boil, he continues to tell his story...

"I was practically a shut in from November until April, rarely coming out of my room, never leaving the hideout, leaving every now and then to fix something for someone. I was trapped with thoughts of self harm, the only thing keeping me company was the darkness... Until one day, Sonic came to me, at first I was not interested in talking to him, I just wanted him to leave me alone... But he didn't, he stayed, he fed me, comforted me, and he did it for a while. Once day he asked me, if I could have had anything in the world what would it be?... I told him, because I was just so starved of love, that I just wanted someone to love me and in a moment of desperation, I asked him... Will you be my boyfriend"

"What did he say?"

"He said yes... And for a while, everything felt like it was going to be alright, I had someone who I already had history with there for me, someone who I thought would be by my side forever. Things got pretty steamy between us in the summer, the whole summer I spent time doing things with him... Like playing twister... Naked. The worst part is, I enjoyed it... I enjoyed it a lot... He made me feel like I had a purpose, like I'd finally found someone I could love"

"Aren't you two supposed to be like brothers?" Winter asks, his head tilted to one side.

"We're not related. We're more like adoptive brothers if anything, but I always just saw him as a close friend" Tails answers.

"Fair. You're a fox, he's a hedgehog" Winter answers.

Tails climbs into Winter's lap, this next part was definitely going to make him pretty upset and Winter could tell.

"Everything was great until October... I was in the mood for action that night... If you know what I mean, I jump on Sonic and kiss his neck like I always did when I was in the mood for messing around... Wanna know what he says?"