Canvas of Fate : A Knitted Odyssey.... 🖤

The leaf which falls has a story to tell

November.....its November again, the haunting November

And the bliss amid chaos is that Until Death crossed 70 k views 🙃 Wattpad pe kareena ke bade bade OG writers ke story pe views dekh ke aise bada accha lagta hai jab meri story pe bhi thode thode acche views aate hain, kisi ke 100k kisi ke 200k kisi ke 150k ,kitna accha lagta hai na jab pyar se likhe gaye sabdo ko pyaar milta hai..

Coming back to the msg i have here :

November 2023 to 2024 , a year since I faced one of the most challenging chapters of my life, a struggle of Last 3 to 4 years finally ended last November, and it's been a year since then , Last November, every day felt like I was inching towards an uncertain end, carrying the amount of physical pain which can't be described in words, emotional turmoil, and a sense of unreality , I never found the courage to speak about it earlier, but today I'm writing I Don't really know why ? May be just felt like sharing...

The ugliest things in the world aren't heartbreaks or failures, they are the helplessness at your parents face, they are the bitter chocolates one has to swallow not knowingly but unfortunately, not the loud music but the beeping machines that fill the silence, not the foul smells we encounter here and there, but the stench of chocolates that linger long after they've been taken. Its sounding bit confusing right? , I know i know but these are the realities of last November.

There were days when even food wouldn't go down, no matter how hungry I was, and nights when I'd scream just to release the fear trapped inside, through it all, I found refuge in my mother's aanchal, her lap, burying myself in its warmth, trying to find some comfort, and then, I would look at my father, and my heart would ache with the thought that he deserved the world, his quiet strength and unwavering presence were like pillars holding me up.

My two friends who, despite their demanding corporate jobs and studies, found time to be there for me. They'd share the ugliest, silliest jokes, hoping to draw a smile out of me even when I felt like there was nothing to laugh about, their presence reminded me that I wasn't alone.

When I would look in the mirror, I would see weakness in my eyes, the paleness of my face, the weight loss , the physical change was too much to bear , getting fired from the job for not meeting the requirements, the cancellation of loans ,and the fear clouding my mind, everything felt overwhelming, and I wanted to cry every minute, i was a mental and emotional mess, struggling to hold it all together

At the same time i was writing Until Death which you guys have loved immensely and the thought of leaving something unfinished felt unbearable, every day was spending like seconds, the hasteness to complete the story was raising with each passing day, I remember thinking, "I have to complete this story, give it a good ending"......Writing became solace, a way to hold onto something that was virtual but mattered, even when everything else felt uncertain and when I saw the way you, my readers, poured your hearts out for both the story and me, it brought tears to my eyes, the love and support you showed touched me deeply and gave me strength on days I thought I had none left When I finally typed the last words and logged out of Wattpad, a part of me felt an odd peace, knowing I had seen it through..... Life is precious, fleeting, and unpredictable in ways we might never fully grasp. Looking back now, I feel an overwhelming gratitude, not only for the chance to finish my story but to continue writing this life, every single day.

When I left home for the vacation , one thing I knew for sure, i didn't want the last place I'd ever fall asleep to be an unfamiliar bed surrounded by walls I didn't choose, but I feared what if I had to , and when I came back to my room again , i realized that life teaches us to smile even amidst our deepest pains, to carry our burdens with grace, but it also reminds us of the importance of opening up, of sharing our struggles with others, It's necessary, it's needed, in vulnerability, we find connection, in honesty, we find healing, no doubt people can live their life on their own, they need no one but if you have company of your friends and family, it makes the journey of life little easier.

For those who think I have written it all for attention or sympathy or any personal profit, no that's not at all true 😀 I am writing this note today so that in the coming Novembers, whenever the word November will haunt me and whenever I would return to Wattpad, I will cherish this journey, I used to believe that once a leaf falls, the branches will never bloom again , but they do bloom, I made through, you too can..... no matter what just keep trying keep working hard keep being gentle towards everyone and yourself, have a clear goal and Focus on achieving that, keep struggling because the real beauty of blooming is only after the fall!

But take a note from here it's not an advice but just a gentle request as I consider you all important to me, in boat of life , while trying to reach the shore , Don't judge people for the choices they make, when you don't know the options they had to choose from, sometimes things are more complicated then they seem, so
don't be rude , Be kind , Be gentle, Be the person at whom people look with a smile and relief.

I know you guys have your own struggles , some are dealing with career problems , some with love life , some with personal problems, some with financial problems and some with health issues but I just want to say to you my dearest Readers:-

Hold on to it even when you feel like puking with nervousness or ending all at once , just hold on if it's necessary but at the same time try to let go of what feels unnecessary and trust me , the saying is true.... whatever you are going through,

This too shall pass !!!!

"The crunches of leaves are not cracky but are beautiful cause every fallen leaf has a story to tell" 🖤