Recently I was Accepted into the competition dance team now I'm definitely not complaining but quite honestly its pretty awful. For example yesterday a girl didn't know the answer to a question that she was asked I knew the answer so I raised my hand said it and my ballet instructor asked me to repeat it 3 TIMES I felt Like such a show off because no one else knew the answer. A girl let's call her M started whispering to her friend I don't know what she said all I know is it was about me. To make matters worse they always whisper about me. Whenever My Instructor compliments me I can tell M is jealous but she just makes an I'm still better than you smirk and tries to hide it. When I don do things completely correct they all just laugh at me. Its so different from my old dancing sessions. Perryn was right they are only concerned about being popular. I honestly thought M and I were friends apparently not. She acts so different around me now. My muscles are aching because I've been working my butt off trying to be accepted and the only way I kno how is dancing utterly perfect. Which is leaving me physically weak. I just feel like I'll never be good enough for them. I know I should ignore it but I constantly find myself looking back to check if they're whispering. Even when Perryn hurt her foot and said she couldn't dance as well for class M and her friends gave eachother this yeah sure look and started laughing so I glared at them and I could tell the one girl didn't mean it and she looked down and felt bad. I hope they will like me...eventually.
That all for today I love you guys bye!
