Angel or Demon

Forgiving the Fallen One

For the next few days, Alastor goes through lesson after lesson on his broadcast, and through said shows, he is able to actually mark off his own list of lessons that he would be made to go over with Emily. The only one that hasn't been able to be finished just yet is the lesson of forgiveness. But he did do as he was asked to do before. He made a list of all the people that had ever wronged him. He made a list of all of his grotesque victims, and then he wrote only his father's name and his own name on a single sheet as those were the most important.

With each day, he is able to forgive one person at a time, and as he does he can feel certain changes in his body. And at first he is unsure as to what is going on, but when Emily and his mother check on him and check his back, they begin to see his wings grow bit by bit.

"Oh my gosh it's working! It's working!"
Alastor's ears perk up a bit as he chuckles.

"Well ain't that something? How marvelous."

"I can't wait to see how your wings will look! Each angel has their own set of unique wings to match their appearances. Unlike us Seraphim, our wings are more formal in appearance and only change when we change our forms. But Winners wings tend to match more toward their looks. Some are small, some are longer, and most tend to match the colors you have."

Alastor looks to his mother whose main color was Yellow. She giggles and turns a bit to spread her wings so that he could get a better view.

"Oh, I see. Then my wings would definitely be the kind to match my colors which appear to be of a sort of light blue, or white."

Emily nods her head.

"Yes. Now the size I don't know how long they will be,"

Dorothy rubs her chin lightly, "Hmm....I'll go with long."

Alastor chuckles, well mother knows best, so I suppose we will see.

Emily nods.

"So your lesson for today is to actually learn more about heaven. You've read the books in the human world, but it's not all as it seems. So today we will talk about the rankings of Angels. Then later Sera will come and test you on it."

Alastor raises a brow, "Very well."

"I know it sounds kind of tedious, most think the same thing. But it is for a reason because heaven has its own different layers and areas. And only these specific rankings can be in certain areas. So it is important to learn about the structure and what resides where."

Alastor nods in understanding. But a part of him carried a small bit of doubt.

So the two go through their lesson with Alastor managing to take notes all throughout the conversation. He is always careful with any kind of information he could obtain. It's what he did when he would go about looking for information about his victims to solidify his reasons for murdering them, at least now he could organize his thoughts and process other types of information that sisnt involve killing. It honestly brought a peace of mind to him, for once his head wasn't just a mess of screams trying to justify his actions.

Maybe it was because of the purification of heaven, or maybe it was because his mindset had changed and receded to his days as a child now that he was once again in the presence of his mother. He was also receiving better treatment than he did in life, and that also gave him a bit of hope to really be able to make a difference for himself, so that he could get rid of the pain in his heart and body.

Later during the evening, Sera pays them a visit to not only quiz him but to also offer some suggestions for his radio show. Alastor was delighted to take in any ideas.

As Sera finishes her testing of the soul in question, her attitude appeared to be proud of his progress.

"You're doing well, and the fact that you've been taking notes as well is incredible. I applaude you."

Alastor chuckles and nods.

"Thank you. I find that writing everything down can sometimes help me to process information. While I didn't do it for good purposes as much in life, it helps me to keep all of my head organized and not a mess."

"Well that's good."

Alasor nods.

"Ah, Ms. Sera mind if I ask you a question or two?"

"Hm? Very well, what is it?"

He takes a breath in.

"Have you ever forgave Lucifer for what he had done....?"

The question throws her off. She turns away and with her hand to her heart she sighs.

"I didn't expect that question.....I don't believe anyone except for one person had ever asked such a question."

"Is that so.....who was the one to ask?"

Sera frowns.

"His brother, Saint Michael."

"Oh."

"I don't think I could speak for him about the subject, but perhaps I could tell him to speak to you before he goes back to work."

"Ah, there is no need to go that far madam."

"Very well. As for me...." Her eyes stare down at the ground as the memories of the past begin to play before her eyes including the fall.

"I can't say that I have fully forgiven him....with how prideful he is and how he carried himself the last time we spoke—I can only just accept the facts that he chose this path..."

Alastor didn't feel satisfied with the response, but decides to nod and let it go.

"I understand. Apologies if I had stirred up any personal memories."

Sera shakes her head.

"It's quite alright. Anyway, your lessons have been doing you quite well, and you've been a really big help to many souls during their mornings. So thank you for suggesting such an idea like a radio show."

"Well thank you for letting me work on it."

Sera smiles and straightens herself out.

"Well I shall head out now. Be sure to get some rest, and I wish you the best of luck during your journey to forgiveness."

Alastor nods his head and bows as she leaves the home. Dorothy steps into the room.

"Are you sure you should have asked such a question dear?"

Alastor turns to his mother, "I really just wanted a small answer to help me be able to forgive, but it doesn't seem like even she forgave him. Her expression said it all. The furrowing of her brows to the sad and disappointing gaze that she carried. She clearly hadn't forgiven him, and I don't believe she ever will. It's kind of sad really....compared to what father had done. If it was me, I would have been able to forgive him easily."

"You realize he gave free will to humanity and created Hell in the first place...."

"Yes, that was his choice mother. But he did not force the rest of humanity to swallow a pill. What Adam and Eve created after that, has nothing do with Lucifer. Humans were born with free will and thinking. We were given choices. That's not necessarily a bad thing. It's about Humans chose to do after receiving that freedom. The same way as it was heavens choice to punish Lucifer and banish him and his lover to Hell. He didn't force anything. He just made a choice like we all do. So who is to say whether or not humanity was always always to be like this?"

Dorothy says nothing.

Alastor gives a gentle smile.

"I think if I want to forgive my father for his choices, then I should forgive the being that gave us the free will to choose. If that is the case, then yes I'll forgive Lucifer for his actions that changed humanity forever."