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I was really starting to lose my nerves. There was always this lingering thought of Darren, and now Yoongi kept crossing my mind more and more the more I had to think about our brief conversation through the door. He now knew that I also had problems. Of all people, him. 

"Hey Yunai, is everything okay with you?" Jin stood in front of me and smiled slightly. I was about to nod and assure him that I was fine, but then I stopped mid-motion. I remembered that, apart from Yoongi, he was the only one who didn't immediately believe me and Namjoon when we revealed the thing about being together. 

His gaze had been doubtful in that moment, and now when I looked at him, I knew he could definitely help me in some way. So I shook my head. Immediately, Jin's forehead furrowed with concern. 

"Do you want to talk about it? Come with me." He went ahead into the living room and sat down on the soft sofa. I did the same as him. A few seconds passed before I finally asked: "Jin... If there is love at first sight, is there also hate at first sight?"

While I said that, I stared at my hands, at the floor, at the wall, but not at his face, because I knew he would laugh. It just sounded too cheesy. But instead of making fun of me, he didn't say anything for a few moments. He seemed to be thinking hard about my question. 

Finally, he asked: "So first of all: is everything okay between you and Namjoon?" I quickly nodded before I could let something wrong slip out. He glanced at me briefly. "Good. And regarding your question... 

No. I think such a thing doesn't exist. There is always a reason why one should not like a person, but hatred is never direct. Do you know what the true opposite of love is, Yunai?"

I shook my head silently. 

"Indifference. When I see a person, I am either shockingly in love with their appearance, or I find this person nice and likable, or I feel indifference towards this person. The only bad feeling you might sense from the beginning would be aversion, because your gut tells you that this person could cause trouble. 

But there are also specific reasons for these emotions. I'll tell you one thing: never act out of hatred if you haven't done anything to that person before, because then it's not your fault, but theirs, understood?" 

This time I nodded. 

"Don't worry about what others might think of you as soon as they see you. And now please tell me one thing. How often do you think about the appearance or the nature of the people around you? How often do you talk about a person's behavior in a specific situation? How often do you think about other people's clothes or something the person said?" 

I thought, my answer was brief: "Actually never." 

Jin nodded contentedly. "Exactly! And do you think others would have answered differently?" Automatically, my head shook as if by itself. "Correct again! See? Just do your thing and ignore the others. 

Of course, there will always be certain assholes who want to bring you down throughout your life, but you have to learn to rise above it all. Such people have enough of their own problems and feel better when they can make other people feel worse. 

If you realize that someone is not good for you, then cut off contact with that person. You will feel better afterwards."

I blinked "Thank you, Jin." My voice sounded rough, I quickly cleared my throat. 

"Are you feeling a bit better now?"

Instead of answering, I walked up to him and gave him a light hug. Actually, I wasn't the type for something like this, but his words felt so good in that moment. Relieved, I noticed that Jin returned the hug without hesitation.

His calm breathing and the steady rise of his chest contributed to my relaxation. Suddenly, a confused voice sounded behind us. "Um, everything alright with you?"

Hobi stood in the kitchen doorway. Suddenly, Jin stood up and automatically pulled me up with him. "Of course." Gently, he pushed me away from him. "Uh, cool then... Jooni is looking for you, Yunai. When you both are done here, I'll gladly take you to him."

With these words, he was already on the move. Since I didn't want to keep Namjoon waiting any longer than necessary, I quickly ran after Hobi, but first, I threw Jin a glance. He replied to him earnestly. 

In the hallway, I caught up with Jhope. "He is waiting in the library, wants to discuss something with you." Joon looked serious. "He will definitely not like that you had so much contact with Yoongi and Jin within just a few hours. As far as I know him, he gets jealous quickly in such matters, and that could become uncomfortable among us guys. So pay better attention. Just a little advice from me."

He looked me straight in the eyes. I swallowed briefly. "Oh, you don't have to worry about that." That won't be the case this time. I laughed out loud. 

"What makes you so sure about that?" Hobi frowned. 

Shit, if this keeps up, I'll spill the beans. "There you are at last. Hoseok, you know that I get impatient quickly."

 When we turned around, I saw Namjoon leaning against the doorframe of a large room. "Come in, babe." I flinched briefly at the nicknames. How did it happen that this thing was so much easier for him than for me? I mean, it was just acting. But how did he manage to say such words so easily? 

Jhope squinted his eyes slightly. He probably didn't miss my flinch. Quickly, I walked up to Namjoon. He welcomed me by putting an arm around my shoulders and pulling me into the room with him. 

The door fell shut behind us. Wait a minute, how did Hobi know about the conversations I had with Yoongi? "Let's sit down. We have quite a bit to discuss." 

Namjoon's arm was still resting on my shoulders.

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Try to type this as quietly as possible for fear of my parents coming in and taking my laptop away from me help XD