Snape Comfort Fic

★Great Hall★

I sat next to Blaise and draco like normal, picking at my food. While it didn't make me feel sick looking at it, it wasn't exactly a pleasing sight. Perry elbowed me and laughed. "Cat got ya tonge?" He snickered. "Its tongue." I grumbled and glared at him.

Draco lightly shifted my hand and I looked at him. He pointed to the teacher table and Snape was motioning for me to come to him. I stumbled up out of my seat, happy to get away from Perry, and made my way up to his spot.

"Yes professor?" He looked at me and set his cup down. "Are you going to eat anything?" I shook my head and lowered it. "Anything?" I shook my head once again and kept it down. "Let's go walk and talk hm?" He stood up and walked to my side of the table before patting my back and leading me through the staff door. "What's going on?" I shrugged and looked up. "Let's go over the bridge, the sun will look nice." He looked at me as I hesitated. "Nervous?" I nodded.

"I'll be with you." Snape rubbed my shoulder in a reassuring way and tilted his head while we walked over the bridge. He was right, the view was pretty. "Have you ever thought about joining quidditch?" I shook my head. I was too weak for that.
"Lun?" I lifted my head slowly and met his gaze. "Mm?" He stopped and placed his hand on my cheek, causing me to flinch. "What's wrong? You're not very talkative today, is something bothering you?" I shrugged and shook a bit against his hand.

"Can I have some verbal conversations please?" I opened my mouth to speak but no words came out. My throat had dried up and had a scratchy sensation. Besides, if I spoke he would hear the worry in my voice, and then he would start questioning and he would.. wait. Oh. Shit. I left my emergency blade on my bed. "Lunar? Lun!" Snape shook me gently and I lifted my head up once more.

"Mm?.." He shot me a concerned look and then pulled me aside and sat me down. I rested my back against the stones. I didn't use the blade, I just fell asleep with it in my hand. What if someone finds it? What if he finds it? "What's going on?" He asked and stared at me. I stared back and felt the damned hot tears fill my eyes. It stung as they filled up the empty spots in my eyes. "Lunar?.." He addressed me quieter and in a softer voice. What was happening? Why do I feel so numb?.. I felt fine this morning, why do I feel like shit?..

"I.. pro.." Snape sat down beside me and held my hand, squeezing it gently. "Take your time." I sighed and the tears started pouring out of my eyes. "I.." instinctively, my arm reached towards my other and I started scratching. Snape gently slid my hand away and held my arm. "Kiddo?.." I took a deep breath and looked at him. "Why won't I get better?.." He sighed, maybe in relief? Snape adjusted himself and hugged me. "You are getting better dear, really better and I'm really proud of that. You haven't cut since the train ride and I'm proud of you do that, especially since you had the option to."

I flinched and my throat tightened. "W..what?" He smiled and hummed a bit. "Woody was cleaning your bed and found the blade dear" my throat tightened more, my breathing quickened. "Lunar? Hey, easy!" Snape immediately went in front of me and held me up as i started to hyperventilate.

The room closed around me and I was consumed within darkness. Snape kept me secure but didn't hold me, just made sure i wouldn't fall. It felt like hours before I felt a hand touch my cheek and then pull me to them. Based on the smell of books and chocolate I assumed it was lupin. "How long has she been like this?" He asked Snape, I couldn't hear the rest as a sharp buzzing sound filled my ears. "Sweetie?" I heard by my ear and then an arm wrapped around my waist. "Come on, come back to us." The voice whispered again, and then the darkness slowly disappeared.

"She's coming back." I felt a sharp pain shoot up my body, and then my eyes slowly opened. Snape was holding me, while Lupin had a syringe. "Hey there sweetie. You had a panic attack."  My body felt numb. "More like a seizure." Lupin spoke up and Snape shot him a look. "It was both, but you're safe now, alright?" I gasped for breath while he spoke as my throat slowly opened up. "Y..y..you.." I whined out, and Snape nodded.

"You can stay with me dear, I don't mind. In my quarters or in my office?" He rocked me a bit. "Q..quarter..quarters.." I managed to choke out. Snape nodded and hugged me. "How's your breathing dear?" He asked as I finally managed to control my hyperventilating. "B..better.." he smiled a little and hugged me again.