Snape Comfort Fic

★train ride★

"I'm sorry.." I muttered under my breath while hot tears filled the empty, dry crevices of my eyes. "It's ok" he pulled me into a hug and rubbed my back before I focused in on his heartbeat and tried to match my breathing with the slow, and low rhythm of his heart. Eventually I succeeded In calming my breathing down, but crying made me get tired. I sighed and tried to fight the tiredness before I felt my body get lifted up into the air slowly and then get pulled into a tight hold.

I looked up and saw Snape holding me close to his chest. I wrapped my legs around him and rested my hands close to his chest before laying my head on his shoulder. Snape succeeded in holding me up in his arms while he grabbed my suitcase and the small bag of drawing supplies I had packed before leaving the bedroom, and walking out of the house.

He walked down the street and eventually ended up at the train station. I covered my ears and whined at the loud sounds of the passing trains and frantic chaos from the people.

I sniffed as he noticed my hands and then casted a spell around us, and all the noise went away. I sighed in relief and dropped my hands to his chest once more and stayed still in his arms. "Are you going to carry me the whole way professor?.." he nodded.

"Just to the train, then I can set you down." I whined a bit. "Are you going to stay in the cart with me?.." he stopped In front of a wall and looked down at me. "I can if you want me to" I nodded and frowned, he nodded back and passed through a wall.

I lifted my head up and seen Ron and Harry before laying my head back down. "I'm gonna lift the spell ok?" I nodded, and he lifted the spell. "Lunar!!" Ron screamed and started heading out way before stopping dead in his tracks after seeing professor Snape holding me.

Hermione scoffed when she seen as well and then smiled. "Can't walk on your own can you?" She said in the playful tone, so I knew she was joking but Snape on the other hand did not take that very well. He glared at her and then cocked an eyebrow. "Do you want to fail my class Hermione?" She shook her head and frowned, apologizing and bowing her head.

"Are you gonna sit with us?" Ron asked and I shook my head in response. "I'm sitting in the teacher section, with Snape" I replied, causing Harry to give me a strange glance. "Your staying with Snape?" He asked, to which I nodded hesitantly. Harry looked at Hermione and then chuckled a bit before walking off towards the train.

I looked at Snape, who was staring down Harry like a piece of meat. "Professor?" Snape looked at me and then softened his gaze before motioning towards the train. "Let's get going hm?" I nodded and then looked back at the train. "I suppose."

"What's wrong?" He asked before making me look at him. "Do you want down?" I shook my head and whined. "Just nervous.." he tilted his head and smiled. "I'll be with you, all the way" I smiled and then nodded.

(Time skip to the train :3)

I was sitting in the cart, waiting for Severus and Remus to join while staring at the window. I looked down and touched my pocket before rubbing my arm and moved my feet to lay against the soft cushioning. I pulled a blanket to my chest and looked at the door before pulling my sleeve up and pulled a small blade out of my pocket. Just a little one, just a small, little one.

I gulped and then pressed the blade against my skin, it felt sharp, very sharp. I once again, looked at the door before pulling the blade across my skin and winced, blood quickly pooled out of the big cut. No, no no! It wasn't supposed to be that big! I quickly shoved the blade in my pocket but carefully before pulling a small handkerchief out of my hoodie and wrapped it tightly around my wrist.

Fuck, please work. The bleeding stopped, and soaked into the handkerchief. I pulled my sleeve down and just then, lupin and Snape walked in and smiled at me. Lupin gave a soft nod to me and then narrowed his gaze. Fuck. Please tell me he can't tell.

Lupin sat down beside me and I moved my feet, Snape sat across from me. As soon as the train started moving, Remus put his hand on mine and tilted his head before whispering into my ear quietly. "Calm down, your breathing is quick, what's wrong?" Snape looked at us and I gripped the blanket tighter. "Sorry professor, I'm just nervous for school to start back up"

He nodded and smiled, moved his head and hand, then gave Snape a look I couldn't recognize. Snape looked back at me and frowned before crossing his leg and then sighed. "Lunar, are you ok?" I nodded quickly and smiled. "Lunar" Snape leaned back against the seat and cocked an eyebrow at me. "I'm ok, can I have a hug though professor?" My arm stung badly, but if I could hug him, maybe it could prove i didn't do anything?

He nodded and motioned for me to come closer. I stood up, walked over to him, and hugged him tight. "Its ok" he whispered, and pulled me to his lap. "Its ok lunar" he whispered once more before rubbing my back and hugging me tighter. I teared up, and buried my head into his chest. "Remus told me outside the cart that he smelt blood, did you?" I stayed quiet, and the train stopped.

I let him go and stood up. "Its time, we'll talk later, alright?" I nodded.