Chasing you.

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Izuku could only stare.

"I've been in love with you for some time now. I confessed to you in the hospital but..you don't remember that obviously." Izuku couldn't believe it.

"I don't know if I love you the same way..back"

"Yea..I know"

Katsuki let out a frustrated sigh "I really have to go"

"Can we talk after?"

"Sure"

—

Katsuki had finally visited his therapist after some time.

"You're finally here" she mentioned "I am, um..so I guess I came back alive-ish." Akiyama hummed "that's good. I'm glad you did. I was worried" Katsuki nodded "Deku came back alive too"

"Yea seen it on the news." Katsuki sat on the couch. "How has everything been since the war?" Katsuki shrugged "bad, good. I still feel slumped from last night."

"What did you do last night?"

"Drink"

Akiyama eyes perked up "you're underage and a hero in training, you shouldn't be doing that" she chuckled "don't judge me!" He spat "I'm not- I'm giving you advice!"

"How have things gone with you and Midoriya?" She then questioned, he clicked his tongue before answering. "We've been fine. I guess, had to spend a whole week with him or he'll die..a quirk hit him and he started acting like he owned me."

"He and Uraraka broke up"

"And."

"..I confessed to him today before coming here. He said he's not sure if he loves me the same way.." Katsuki explained. "..have you guys did anything even after what happened?" The male nodded "we kissed or whatever. The usual."

"You need to let him go."

Katsuki hadn't expect her to say that. "Why?" He asked, that's what he didn't want to do. "You're hurting yourself." She informed him "I know. I know that already."

Katsuki didn't care.

"I don't want to loose him."

"..you rather keep doing this? And watch him fall in love with someone else? He will toss you to the side-"

"Deku cares too much about me to do that"

"Once he has a wife- husband and kids, you won't be much important like you are now"

It was the hard truth.

He swallowed hard.

"I know."

—

Katsuki returned, Izuku knew what time he would come back, so he was already there waiting for him.

"Hey there Izuku!" Masaru waved "Hi-!" He waved back as Katsuki got out "thanks dad" he said as his father gave a nod then drove off. "How'd it go?" He asked him.

"Good."

"You sound upset."

"Maybe because I am? Are you stupid."

Gosh those words were harsh.

Izuku pouted "you were nice before all this."

"Being around you is hurting me, it's best if we just- never speak again"

Izuku froze "what?" Being away from Katsuki, he can't do that. "You don't like being around me? Why? I'm
Sorry I can't return feelings- I can try! Just give a week or two! I thought what we had so far was going good so why!?"

"We haven't even spoken since after the incident- you already had parted ways with me, what made you want to come up to me today and finally talk to me?"

Izuku scratched his arm "..Mei told me what happened and I just wanted you to clarify. Also check up on you as you didn't come to school today." Katsuki rolled his eyes. "Great you got what you wanted so you can fuck off from my life now"

"But I don't want to! I like being around you- even when we don't talk, seeing you makes my day." Katsuki  didn't like it.

He loved being around Izuku but..

Akiyama was right.

"You only come to me when you need something , most of the time that's fucking just making out with me! Do you just like messing with my feelings?"

"Of course not! I love being with you- maybe I'm not in love with you but I can try- really!" Katsuki gritted his teeth "It should come natural! I don't want to force this on you!"

"You're just scared for me to discard you again! And which I am by the way for my own heart right now!"

Well not necessarily.

"But- I love kissing you, it feels good, when you kiss me back and I get to feel you..I can't do that with anyone else. I don't want you doing that with anyone else either- it hurts my feelings even thinking about it!"

"And when I sometimes loose control of my hands and body and you let me- it feels all good I don't want it to stop. I love you but I just don't love you as a partner should."

"So just give me a chance to try?"

"I love you Katsuki so please-"

He cut him off.

"No. It just won't work out."

Izuku grabbed his arm. "Why? It can- we can-"

"There's no we when this shit is only one sided!"

This made the older male mad "WELL NO ONE TOLD YOU TO CATCH FEELINGS IN THE FIRST PLACE!"

Izuku slapped his hands over his mouth.

"..you're blaming this shit on me? Especially the way you act with me?" He seen the anger rise in his face, possible tears to fall out soon.

"When you fucking kiss me- you fucking kiss me like I'm the fucking love of your life! You're gentle as shit and it pisses me off! You're always praising me and crap during those moments we share- how do you expect me to feel?!"

"You tell me you love me and that I'm amazing at everything I do! That you never want to let me go! You're so fucking confusing!"

"Which is why I don't want anything to do with you! It hurts me being with you! Because I know- you know! We both know that this won't work out!"

"Kacchan don't cry please I'm sorry" he cupped his face to wipe away his tears. "you see the- fuck! You see the shit you're doing right now?!" Izuku nodded giving him a small kiss on the forehead.

Though Katsuki didn't pull away, Izuku brought him into his arms, rocking side to side for a bit.

"I'm sorry Kacchan, I never mean to hurt you." He said softly, his hands brushing at the back of his head.

"..I love you too much to let you go."
"I'll love you- I'll love you like this forever if you let me."

Katsuki sniffled "..but you don't love me the way I love you."

"But I will if you let me try."

—

🍻💕

—rose