Raven Grey (Sons of Anarchy Fanfic)

Chapter 2

We got back to the clubhouse. Some of the guys were in the garage and the others in the clubhouse. I got off of the bike and made my way to the garage where I knew Happy or Chibs would be. I walked in and I found Tig, Clay, Bobby, Chibs, and Happy.
"Think you're showing too much skin?" Tig asked.
"Nope I think I'm showing just enough, thanks though." I smiled sarcastically.
"When I dropped you off you weren't wearing that." Happy said walking over.
"Yes I was. I was just wearing a jacket over it it was cold this morning." I said wrapping my arms around him.
"I think she looks hot." Juice smirked walking in.
"Shut it Juice." Happy growled.
"Calm down Hap its okay." I said rubbing his back.
"Whatever." He mumbled kissing my cheek, and walking back to work on his bike. "Whats up with you and him?" Juice asked with everyone nodding in agreement. 

"Nothing we're just friends."

"Mmmhmm what ever you say doll." Tig said smiling.
"Oh shut it." I said.

Jax came walking in and stood in front of me.
"Did anyone give you a hard time at school today?" He asked.
"Nope." I lied.
"Really cause the school just called Gemma to tell us that you got into a screaming match with a girl today." He told me.
"It doesn't matter." I said.
"Yes it does Raven, if someone is bothering you we want to know." He said.
"Why? So you can go handle it? No, I'm fucking 17 I'm a big girl I can handle my shit Jackson. I don't need you to go and handle my fights." I snapped.
"You're still a child Raven." He said.
"Oh so I'm a child that you fucked?" I asked.
"What the fuck is she talking about Jax?" Happy asked walking over wrapping his arm around my waist. "It doesn't matter it was a mistake." He sighed.
"Oh, so now I'm just another one of your mistakes where do I come in? Second next to Wendy or am I in first?" I snapped.
"Look I just wanted to make sure you weren't hurt." He said.

"It's too late for that I've already been hurt." I said as I pulled away from Happy walking out of the garage and heading to the clubhouse. Jax followed right behind me along with everyone else. He grabbed my arm and turned me around.

"What the fuck are you talking about its too late?" He asked not letting me go.
"I told you it doesn't fucking matter. It has nothing to do with you." I snapped.
"Does it have something to do with Luke?" Happy asked.
"No, why would it?" I asked lying.
"You're a horrible lier Raven, and I saw the bruises that you would come home with after going to his house. You also would completely ignore me or Jax as if you were afraid that if he saw you with us he would do something. So he abused you and thats what you meant when you said it was already too late, am I right?" He asked.

As soon as he started talking about Luke I started crying. "Yeah you're right." I trembled. Jax wrapped his arms around my waste as I shook with fear and shame. He kissed my temple and tucked my head underneath his chin.
"I'ma take her back to my place," He said shakily, obviously trying not to be mad around me.
"I'll come with you," Happy says, nodding in agreement. Jax leads me to his bike and helps me on. He wraps my arms around his waist and we head off to his house with Happy hot on our heels.

We got to Jax's and I sat on his couch with him and Happy across from me. "Why?" Jax asked.
"Why what Jax?" I asked.
"Why did you let that shit happen to you?" Happy asked.
"You think I fucking let this shit happen? No, it didn't go like that it never does. He was so sweet and caring in the beginning, and then he started getting into drugs and alcohol. It's like a switch flipped in him. He became cruel and aggressive he hurt me in ways you wouldn't be able to understand, but I still thought he loved me. I know it was stupid to think that he still loved me. He came up to me today in school telling me he knew what I did. He said that Julia told him I cheated on him, and I'm not just hurt from him, I'm hurt from you too Jax. You knew I wanted to lose my virginity to someone who loved me and now I can't because you took it from me." I told them crying.

"I'm sorry Raven I didn't mean for it to come out like that. I'm also very sorry that Luke did all of that shit to you." Happy told me.
"That shit Luke did to you shouldn't have happened and I'm so sorry that it did. I didn't TAKE your virginity you gave it to me, I did love you Raven I guess I didn't show it very well." Jax told me.
"It doesn't matter I was a mistake to you, and you are now a mistake to me. What we did was illegal anyway until I turn 18 so you better hope no one finds out about it." I told him.

"Only half the club knows. I'm sure they all know by now but it needs to stay in the club only." He told me.
"You don't need to tell me that. You're the one that needs to keep their mouth shut around Tara. I know the affect she has on you. Do NOT tell her shit about me she has no right to know understand?" I asked.
"Yes I know. She doesn't have any affect on me." He snapped.
"Yes she does and we all know it." I told him.
"Come on little girl lets get you back to the clubhouse." Happy said standing up.
"See you later Jackson, and go see your son you're all he has." I snapped, walking out the door with Happy.

We got back to the clubhouse, and I hopped off the bike and headed straight inside not saying anything to Happy. I walked in and went to my room in the back ignoring everyone that was staring at me. I grabbed the bottle of Jack in my dresser and laid on my bed taking a sip. There was a knock on my door five minutes later. "Go away." I groaned.

"Little girl open the door." Happy demanded.
"Fuck off Happy!" I yelled.
"Open the fucking door Raven." He yelled back slamming his fist against it.
"No go away!" I yelled again.

I heard the door knob jiggle a bit and then I heard a click. Fucking bastard picked the lock. He walked in and shut the door behind him. He saw me and the bottle and shook his head. "Little girl what are you doing?" He asked.
"What does it fucking look like." I sassed.
"Don't sass me Raven. Why are you even drinking you're only seventeen." He said sitting on the end of my bed facing me.
"Because I can Hap. Come on like you never drank when you were my age?" I asked sitting up.
"I did but it wasn't so I could drink my feelings away." He stated.
"And just exactly what feelings am I drinking away?" I asked.

"You're upset, you still feel like it's your fault Luke turned out like that, you think it's your fault that he beat you, you feel worthless." He told me.
"Stop just stop Hap I don't want to hear it anymore okay." I said getting up from the bed.
"Little girl none of that is your fault okay? Its all on Luke, I just hope you know once Clay finds out he's going to want you protected and he's going to want to kick Luke's ass." He said standing up and walking over to me.
"I don't want to be protected, I don't need it." I snapped.
"If you couldn't protect yourself from him beating you then what makes you think you can now?" He asked. I slapped him hard across the face. He grabbed me by the shoulders and pushed me against the wall. "Do not slap me little girl." He said menacingly.

"You do not accuse me of not fighting back. None of you know what happened or how hard I fought. I only got out of the relationship because he cheated on me with Julia because I wouldn't have sex with him. I did fight back Hap so hard but it was never enough." I said pushing him back.
"I don't appreciate being pushed around little girl." He snapped his eyes darkening.
"Oh you don't appreciate being pushed around? Fuck you Happy you have no idea what being pushed around feels like." I snapped. I walked back to my bed grabbing the Jack and laying back down. "Just go away if you're going to lecture me some more." I snapped taking a sip.

I felt my bed dip and I look over seeing him sitting down next to me. "I'm not trying to lecture you or hurt you little girl I'm not good at this." He told me. I turned over facing him.
"Not good at what?" I asked.
"Making sure you're okay." He said putting his rough hand on my cheek. Next thing I know his lips are mine. I kiss back but then pull away.
"We can't Happy it's even more illegal then me and Jax. Just go fuck Victoria or Ima like you always do okay? Don't let me have feelings for you if this will go no where which I know it will." I snapped standing back up and leaving my room.