Close My Eyes (Twilight Fan-fiction)

Chapter 8 - "Please Don't Cry"

A/N: Sorry that this took longer than expected to upload; I know that I'm like a week late. I was real busy, I'm in my last 6 weeks of school, prepping for my final exams, and dealing with some things. I hope you understand. Sorry again. ~ WorshipStew

(Edward's P.O.V)

I couldn't believe it. A part of me felt amazing, imagine if she loved me? I mean, if she loved me like that; loved me the way that I'm starting to love her. But she probably didn't mean it, she'd been through hell today. But a part of me felt incredibly sad, when I told myself that she didn't mean it. I guess I was just hoping she did. I just lay there, stunned, rubbing her back as she sobbed into my chest. Her sobs suddenly calmed.

"Edward, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say that out loud. I'm so sorry." She apologised, tears leaking softly from her eyes. She closed her eyes, a sob escaping. I didn't hesitate to wrap my arms around her, pulling her back to my chest. She was afraid that I didn't want her? I wanted her more than anything. I wanted to ask her if she really did have feelings like that for me, desperate to know if she wasn't just saying it in shock, but I decided to let it drop. I knew today had been horrible for her, falling down the stairs and all the crying, she didn't know what she was saying.

"Bella, it's okay." I hushed, trying to calm her. I decided not to bring it up at all unless she said it again, in fear of upsetting her. I couldn't do that. I felt so sorry for her. She was suffering so badly. She didn't deserve this. I could tell that something else was seriously bothering her but she never told me. She suddenly sobbed harder into my chest, clutching my shirt.

"Bella, baby, please don't cry. Please." I whispered to her, her sobs shattering my heart like shattered glass. I loved Bella, maybe more than I should. She was my best friend. She'd been my best friend for 6 years. I hated seeing her like this.

She looked up to me, her brown eyes full of pain and confusion. "Edward," She sobbed. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be. You have nothing to be apologising for." I murmured. She lay her head back on my chest, wrapping herself around me. She was still crying, I continued to rub her back and kiss her hair. It wasn't long before her sobs subsided and her breathing deepened. I leant over and turned the light out. I lay in darkness, a sleeping Bella clutching my chest. I was happy that she was sleeping, she wasn't feeling any pain for a little while; physical or emotional. Bella's warm body was comforting to me. Her hair tickled my face, her head so high up my chest. I kissed her hair softly, it smelled wonderful.

"Goodnight beautiful." I whispered before closing my eyes to attempt to sleep; but I found that I couldn't get her words from my head. 'I'm falling in love with my best friend.' I was a fool to deny it anymore. I was falling in love with her, too. I was afraid. Being best friends with Bella for so long, I expected it to feel wrong. But it didn't. It felt right. I couldn't stop myself from wishing that her words were true.

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"Get off me!" Bella shouted, my eyes shot open, startled. "Please don't touch me!" She screamed.

I was scared, I thought she was yelling at me, but her eyes were closed. She was dreaming, or rather, having a nightmare. She was sobbing, screaming and kicking wildly.

"Don't touch me! Please don't hurt me!" She begged, thrashing about. I reached over and grabbed her arms to stop her hurting herself.

"Bella! Bella!" I said, trying desperately to wake her up, her pleas were like torture to me. She struggled under my hold, her sleeping face contorted with absolute fear.

"Please don't hurt me again." She sobbed, her struggles weakening.

"Bella? It's me. It's Edward. I'm not going to hurt you. I promise." I murmured, shaking her slightly.