12:08 :: jj

o n e

*hailey*

dear jack,

I miss you, do you know that? I'm pretty sure you do but just in case you don't...I miss you, so so much. this is a whole new concept for me. you, me...us. not having you around is horrifying, not being able to hug you and kiss you. god not being able to see you kills me in every way possible. it's only been a couple days and honestly I don't know how I'm going to survive this. a whole month, a year, and years without you. without seeing you smile, hear your laugh. I miss the way your hands wrap around me, the taste of your lips. but most importantly I miss you, so much it's unreal. I love you Jack Edward Johnson. see you soon my love.

love,
Hailey

I finish up the letter and fold it up putting it in a plain white envelope.

I seal it up and leave it on my desk. grabbing my jacket I put it on along with my shoes.

"where are you headed" my mom ask as I go down the stairs

"hailey talk to me I know this whole Jack situation is upsetting but you can't leave its midnight"

I stop in my tracks and turn around

"no you don't know! he isn't your dead boyfriend now is he? no! you don't know the pain I'm going through right now so don't you even dare say you know how I feel because you don't. ok you don't" i yell at her in anger tears streaming down my cheeks

she looks at me, a shocked expression on her face.

I turn around and go out the door shutting it. I walk about two blocks before I make a turn to my left.

I walk a little more until I'm here.

12:05

just in time.

I walk up to his grave and sit down.

12:08

"hey baby, I miss you a lot" I smile a tear going down my cheek as I speak

I sigh "here's your usual daily letter, I love you"

I get up and take the letter out of my pocket that I have in the jacket and place it right in front of his grave.

"I'll see you tomorrow at exactly the same time" I smile and wipe my eyes

"bye baby" I say and turn around to walk back to my house.

+

I sigh as I enter my room. I take off my shoes and jacket placing it on my chair.

I undo my bed and throw some of my pillows on the floor.

I change into my pajamas and lay in bed just staring at the ceiling.

why Jack, why you?