12:08 :: jj

s e v e n

*hailey*

I hear some tapping on the window that woke me up.

I groan and get up sliding the curtains.

"hey" jack says once I open the window

"jack, what are you doing here" I ask as he's sitting on the tree next to my window

"can I come in?" I nod and move from the window to let him in

I sit on my bed and watch him as he comes in from the window

"what's up"

"nothing just wanted to see you" he says

"that's why there's a door jack" I chuckle

"right, figured your parents were asleep" he shrugs sitting on my bean bag chair

"my parents aren't home" I laugh

"oh" he pauses "I knew that"

"sure you did"

new text message

zoe: sorry. I was kind of just ignoring you for the day.

h: is that suppose to make me feel better..

zoe: no it's not like that I promise

h: then what's up.

zoe: I can't say this now, through text. but I'll go to your house later.

I sigh and shut my phone.

"what happen?" jack asks

"zoe"

"want to talk about it"

"no, nothing important how about we go out" I suggest

"or how about we talk" I shrug and agree

"about"

"from a couple weeks ago"

"oh. that. what about it"

"I know we said it didn't mean anything but I can't stop thinking about it" i did not expect that

"I uh" I was practically speechless

"you don't have to say anything"

"I can't either" I quietly say looking down at my hands

I look up to see jack walking over to me. he puts his hands on my waist and one leg on the side of mine.

I wrap my arms around his neck. he leans in and so do I.

he slowly lays me down as he hovers over me without breaking the kiss.

+

"ok, the reason why I was ignoring you was because I have something to tell you" zoe huffs

"I'm listening" I say sitting on the sofa

"well when jj came up to you the first time you guys met. the time he threw you that football" she laughs a little and I smile at the thought

"I really liked him. I did even after you guys were going out. course I couldn't and I was trying my hardest to not like him. I was"

"so you liked him. and you never told me?"

"let me finish please" I sigh but nod ok

"but once I saw you two together and how happy he made you and you made him. I knew there went my chance. every time I saw you two together I got this feeling at the pit of my stomach. I soon realized it was jealousy I felt. even after I convinced myself I didn't like him like that. and till this day I can't seem to get over that. I don't think if I told him my feelings thing would be different. because it's not true. he fell for you and he fell hard"

I didn't know what to say. how can she keep this from me. I'm not mad. but I'm not happy.

+

dear jack,

did you know? about zoe having these so called feelings for you? I don't now what to feel. should I be mad. should I understand her. I really wish you were here to help me with all this. would I be having these feelings for jack if you were still here? would I be loving you as much as I do? I have all these questions that are unanswerable. and it's killing me. oh baby, come back and tell me everything will be ok. because I need to hear that. I'm almost done with high school. two more weeks and I'm done with high school. it's been almost a year since you've been gone. I'm learning to deal with it. it was hard at first because I was in denial. I still am, God knows I am but I'm dealing with it. and jj...I'm falling for jack and I'm falling hard.

love,
Hailey

12:08

"you'll always have a piece of me with you.."