In the Midst of it All

XIIII*

{Y/N 2nd POV}
You squint your eyes to see his features in the dim light, but you roll your eyes when you see Soaps eyes and beard.

"What do you want, I need to rest Soap." His close proximity reminds you of the first night you were here, how he would bend over backwards to make sure you were alright. But he's changed.

"Y/n, stop ignoring me."

Your jaw almost drops from amusement, you ignoring him?

"Soap, if I can remember for the past few days you've been the one who's acted different towards me."

"So because I act indifferent towards you it makes it okay to move on."

"Move on from what?? We are just friends who had a little thing, you wanted to stop it and so I obliged." Soaps words are like shit coming out of his ass and you couldn't stand it. He had ignored you for the past few days and only enough cares now?

"From me! I really liked you y/n, seeing you at the bar for our mission was like you were made for me. You were brought right in front of me. And when you joined the team I felt like a little boy getting the latest video game. Our sex was incredible. But the very next day you forced me to leave. And from then on you hanged out with everything but me."

Soaps words get more intense with his tone, he's breaking out in a cold sweat. His confession feel like a jok at first, but he's looking at you for an answer. You hasn't realized you purposely ignored him afterwards as well. You made Soap stress this much, it fills you with guilt.

"The helicopter crash really opened my eyes. I've never felt fear and guilt like that before. I was so scared i was the cause of your death. If i was just a little smarter I could've saved you as well. I don't want to lose you." His voice cracks at the end and he shakes his head.
You struggle to find words, what would you even say to him in this situation?
"Soap, I had-- I really didn't think it would-- I never knew you cared this much for me." It was all you could get out.

"I care so much for you y/n, seeing you hangout with König and the others gets me so pissed. The way König calls you his 'pet names' makes me want to hurl him over my shoulder."

"What? König doesn't call me pet names, he's just being a good teamate Soap.."

"Because a good teammate stands that close to you and is physical is just "helpful". Him calling you his "doll" doesn't make you suspicious? Do you like his attention more than what I gave you?"
You hasn't really thought what names König has been calling you, you didn't even know Soap knew German. He had to sit by watching you smile at König as he called you sweet names.
"I didn't know--"

A voice can be heard passing the hallway at the end. It's another guard walking through, when you're distracted by his movements Soap scoots his leg in between yours.
"Does it hurt?" He must be talking about your stab.

"It's getting better. Can I head back to my room?"
But Soap nods his head left and right, his knee inches closer and it elevates its pushing against your hole.

"Y/n, I'm sorry, let me make it up please." Soap grinds his knee in between you, the friction of his pants against your sweatpants.

"Soap-" You wanna snap him out of whatever trance he's in. But he cuts you off to place his hand under your chin.

"My name. Say my name." He keeps rubbing his knee against your vulva, and you struggle to speak up.