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Breakdown (Zayne x Reader)

!TW! Self hatred, death, blood

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I ring the bell of the giant mansion infront of me. I look up to see the light in the floor going on. In the faint beam, I notice that my fingers left some blood on his doorbell and on the white wall. Gotta take care of that tomorrow.

I had left another illegal underground fight. I started going to those a few month ago. My partner from UNICORNS... they had an accident. An accident that was caused by my carelessness during work. I've made a lot of mistakes during my life, but none of them resulted in someone so close to me to loose their life. And only because of my neglect of my duties.

Now my only way to deal with my guilt and the pain was to throw myself into more work, and recently, to get myself into these competitions. I don't know if it's for my own punishment or just a coping mechanism, but whatever it is, it's the reason I do it.

Still sunken in my thought, my head and ankle throbbing in pain, the door opens. I look up to face him.

His eyes widen at my sight, and I grin the best I can.

"Hey. How's it going?"

Zayne blinks a few times.

"Good evening, you really don't look good. Why are you here in the middle of the night?"

I sniff and feel the blood down my throat, leaving a sweet, metallic taste.

"Oh, I was just passing by on my midnight walk and wanted to ask if you'd like to help me look for my goldfish."

I cough. "I'm bleeding, that's why I'm here, stupid."

He frowns, his expression showing a hint of desperation.

I wipe the blood off from below my nose, which was still bleeding. I feel the thin layer of liquid drying across the skin on my face, a droplet falling on the ground, leaving a bright red mark on the grey marble.

,,I knew you weren't sleeping anyway. So, what's the problem?''

He sighs and moves to the side to let me it. I let go of the wall to step inside, but the moment I put a little bit of weight down on my foot an unexpected pain stings through my leg, making my knee fail and I would've crashed to the ground, if Zaynes arm would've caught me. I look at him and his worried expression, raise my eyebrow and push him away, my hands leaving a mark all over his clothes, my body crashing on the ground anyway.

He breathes out in disbelief.

,,What was that for?" he asks.

I roll over on my back to face him.

,,I don't need your help. I just need something for my nose and I'm good to go." I quickly turn around and force myself standing through the pain. Before I can try to walk again, he suddenly puts an arm around my waist, the other gripping my wrist thighly, pulling it down, preventing me from moving.

,,Let me go!" I want to get myself out of his embrace, but his grip is solid. I try again, but he doesn't even move an inch.

I didn't know he was that strong, damn.

He scoffs. ,,You can either have all or none of my help. Decide for yourself."

I roll my eyes. ,,Fine. Go play my saviour."

With his help we slowly move towards his sofa, where I sit down. He grabs my ankles and puts them up on the couch so I lie on it.

I surpress the urge to snap at him and force myself to relax a little. He is absolutely exaggerating, this has happened before, I'll be fine in a day or two, maximum.