The Two Moons Meet

Why Does It Hurt So Much?

(Ray Pov)

*A Year Later*

The shots burned my throat as I downed them. One after the other drowning in the alcohol. People flooded next to me, spitting nonsense. My head was pounding from my damn headache. I looked up to a clock that was above the bar. I watched as the seconds, minutes, and hours went by. Just staring and drinking. My eyes were glued to the clock.

A tear ran down my cheek soon after many more tears came. I couldn't stop them, they just kept falling. People probably didn't care or think I'm crazy. My heart ached and my mind traveled to Akk. I just wanted Akk and nothing more. Why the hell did it happen like this?

"Hey you okay?" a voice popped up beside me. It was a guy with some black glasses on. I didn't say anything or even care. "Hey are you?" he questioned again and I lost it.

"Shut the fuck up!" I shouted, making the poor guy jump back. All eyes went on me but I didn't care. I tried to calm myself but I can't seem to. I just want to forget everything.

I drank and drank as the night passed. By this time the tears stopped but my mind still lingered on him. Every time I think of Akk my heart breaks even more than it already was. Ever since then I lost everything that was important for me. I couldn't handle anything anymore. I thought I was going to be okay but it turns out I will never be.

I cried silently in the bar with an empty glass of whisky. I stared at my reflection and I looked terrible. Why Akk? Why...I can't please, I need you. Everywhere I went I thought of Akk, his face can't leave me alone. I laid my head down, resting it on my arms. More tears fell as I looked at the bar's walls. My mind went to what happened. Akk...

"Why are you so mad?" I asked why Akk slammed the door. He gave me a look like he was going to kill me. I gulped because I had never seen him like this before.

"Seriously you're asking me that! What the hell Ray?" he shouted so loud that I flinched. I was confused to say the least. "Why did you punch that man?" he was angry and I knew it. Just before at the bar I punched this dude because he got on my nerves. Why was Akk being like this?

"I could ask you the same thing, what is the big deal?" I said, the anger growing inside of me. I saw Akk's hand clutch in a fist and I walked a bit closer to him.

"That man did nothing wrong and you punched him!" he stated and grabbed my collar. "You're acting like a child Ray, a chi-" A didn't let him finish his sentence and I smacked him. I didn't realize what I did until Akk's body hit the wall.

I tried to help him but he pushed my hand away. His head hung low so I couldn't see his face. I wanted to say something but I couldn't get the words out. He got back his balance and walked a few steps to me.

"Smacking me huh?" he said, "is that the only thing you do?" he sounded pissed. I stayed quiet and just stood there. He picked up his head and our eyes met. His fiery eyes to mine, I felt a slight fear.

"I'm sor--" I tried to apologize but he cut me off.

"You don't say you're sorry Ray, you can't you already done it," he took a step back. "Hitting people can get someone killed," he said in a calm tone. "Do you fucking realize that!!" he shouted, pointing at me. I was frozen in place, I was confused and scared. "You have no idea what people go through! You can't just hurt someone, Ray!" he yelled at me and I lowered my head. I wanted to speak but I kept my mouth shut.