The Two Moons Meet

The Loss

(Akk Pov)

I sat on top of a very tall apartment with my legs dangling off. It's been like this since I left Ray behind. It's been a year...since then. I hate it, I hate leaving Ray. Watching the sunset with the sun falling and the moon rising. I clutched the sides of the concrete building, lowering my head. I must be an idiot to be behind him. I wish it was easy but damn this the hardest thing I ever had to do. A single wet tear fell down my cheek. It's been really hard for me.

I sighed and looked down off the building. It was a pretty far drop to the ground. I wish I could end it right here but now I'm a ghost. I already died...

"Damn it!" I shouted.

I walked off the ledge and headed for the door. Before stepping back into the apartment, I looked up to the moon. I wish it was the sun, like Ray. The rays of sunlight that warms me. I turned back and walked to the fleet of stairs. No one was here at this time so I was alone. Most of the time I am already. Without Ray I'm nothing. Thinking about how things turned out I wished it didn't happen. Meeting Ray was the best thing I ever did but it hurts so much.

He healed me and in return I hurt him. What person does that? I hate it, he doesn't deserve it. His life is so hard and painful for him already. I hate seeing him sad from getting yelled at or no one believing in him. But I was there for him, I healed him and believed in him. Now? It's my fault why I'm hurting, it's because of me. I promised him but now I broke it.

I slowed my steps while still walking. My feet keep moving while my mind goes wild. What have I done? I can feel his pain even if we are not together. Were connected in ways that are unexplainable. Feeling what he is feeling. Now he is sad and not an ounce of happiness. I lost didn't I.

"I'm sorry," I said, walking under the dark sky. The only light was from the moon that led me down the sidewalk. I kept walking, not thinking where I was going.

I followed my footsteps with my eyes, not looking up. My feet soon stopped and I felt I was familiar with this area. It was Ray's house. Why am I here? Why did my body take me here? I don't want Ray to see me. My eyes roamed to the window of his room. It was dark with no light. I sighed, letting out a shaky breath. I forced my feet to turn back, not looking back at Ray's house. I couldn't bring myself to do it. Multiple tears fell and I couldn't hold them back. My mind remained on Ray.

Ray was running and I was chasing him. We ran and ran no matter if the rain started. I looked up, seeing the grey clouds covering the sky. I moved my eyes back on Ray, wanting to catch him. I picked up my pace, getting closer to him. I heard him yelp, seeing me close. I grab his waist bringing him back to me. My body collided with his and the force made us fall. I let my back hit the dirt ground with Ray landing on top of me. We stayed like that, not moving. Thinking about what we just did. Our eyes met and we both burst into laughter.

"I didn't think you were fast," he joked and I poked at him.

"Don't underestimate me, Mr. Ray," I said and I heard him laugh. I just laid there with Ray laughing on top of me. I love seeing him smile, it's the best smile I have ever seen.

We both sat against a large oak tree. We watched the rain pour, getting both of us soaked. We laughed and laughed. We watched as the clouds moved across the sky. I noticed Ray leaned against me and I smiled. He glanced at me and our eyes met for a second. But we returned to watch the cloudy sky. We were covered by the leaves of the tree. I smiled.

I held in a sharp breath. Thinking about that time. I wanted to hold my cries but what is the point? There was nothing I could do. I left him alone, like I was. I was alone until I met Ray. He helped me and accepted me and what do I do? I just pushed him away... He was the only one that realized I was here. The only one that wasn't scared.

It was cold, very cold. I watched as the cold wet snow fell. My hands wrapped around my legs as I curled up against a tree. There was no light in the night sky. The moon was hidden. I looked up at my house, where my mother and father were. I saw the lights off, knowing they aren't up. I shivered in the cold. I just want to be warm. What did I do to be left out here? I know they aren't going to care for me so I tried to think of something else. My tears froze as they hit the frozen ground. My feet and my hands were numb. I let out shallow breaths, closing my eyes. I sat there with my head laying on my knees. I tried to keep myself warm from the cold but failed. My whole body was in pain from the cold. What did I do? Why do I have to stay like this?

I paused and looked around, it was the park. I half chuckled. Why am I going to places that I have been with Ray. My tear stained face couldn't take it anymore. My heart couldn't take it anymore. I was breaking into tiny pieces. Ray please.

I sat on the bed with Ray laying his head in my lap. He was watching something on his phone. I got a bit curious and I guessed he noticed.

"What? Wanna watch?" he asked and I nodded. I heard him chuckle and he brought his phone to where we both could see it. I looked at it and he was watching some type of dance. I was confused but didn't ask.

I think he called it Tiktok the app. I didn't know anything about it but all I know is that it made Ray have a smile. So I smiled too. I love his smile, his smile is like the most peaceful thing ever. I heard him laugh, chuckle, and giggle. I glanced at him and he looked at me. We both smiled at each other.

I sat down on an old swing. Sometimes Ray sits here and just watch severything. I noticed his point of view sitting here. I saw the bar across the street and the top of the school. I saw almost everything that was here. I tried to relax but something else came first.

Out of nowhere I felt a big stab to my chest. I coughed falling out of the swing. My hand grabs my chest. I coughed like I was choking. I don't understand what is happening. Where is this pain coming from? I tried to gasp for air but my airways felt like they were closing. Tears fell from my eyes from my struggle. My mind shot to Ray. Is he okay? My body went numb and weak. I laid underneath the swing, trying to get myself together. I have no idea what is happening. My eyes were getting heavy but I noticed a blazing siren. It was an ambulance...Before closing my eyes I saw that people were rushing someone into the ambulance.

"Ray," was the last thing that escaped my mouth.

And everything went black.